Volume 7, Chapter 4 - Amano and Aguri and Deadly Party
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Translator: your_pingas
I have a girlfriend, a handsome friend, and sometimes Iāll talk about relationships with my friendās girlfriend. I was even confessed by another girl recently.
All of you knowā¦the name of this refined man who stood above all normies already, right!
Hello, Iām the popular normie guy thatās about to go viral, Keita Amano.
Hiya, what a pain. Why am I in pain? ā¦Of course, itās the activities that all normies look forward to. The schedule of the school trip is so packed that Iāve been busy!
HAHAHAHA!
Even though this is just the end of the first day. Eh? Youāre asking me what did I do on the first day? Hoho, I went to Osaka. An Osaka trip.
Eh? You want me to say what did I do precisely?
ā¦Uh, hmm, sigh, ā¦why does it matter, letās forget about that. Yep.
A-Alright, itās time for me to go. Itās because Iām swamped.
Eh? Youāre asking me isnāt this narration ending too quickly?
No, no, no, itās hard to blame the guy.
After, if weāre talking about reality, itās the first night of the school trip right now. Weāre in the 6-person room allocated for the groups-
āBut we didnāt have fun in Osaka today because of someone.ā
āHe canāt even figure out how should we transfer to the next train, really?ā
āGamers (laugh) are super useless.ā
āSigh, Iām really envious of those 5-person groups, the room is more spacious.ā
āHey, hey, hey, heāll hear it if weāre talking too loudly. The guy is hiding at the corner and trying his best to stay on his phone.ā
-I canāt even escape to my imagination, what a hostile environment.
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āAHAHAHAHA!ā
I left the unbearable room. Once the door closes, I can hear Kaburagi-san and his friendsā laughter.
āā¦Theyāre actually happy.ā
I mumbled with a sigh. Then, I plopped my head down as I walked across the corridor. ā¦The yukata provided to the guests to wear in the rooms is way too large. A tiny guy like me canāt move properly with it.
āAy, even though itās actually my fault for getting onto the wrong trainā¦ā
Well, if I want to look for a tiny excuse, they did walk slowly on purpose, which ruined my transfer plans. Then, they made fun of me because I was freaking out. The same thing repeated again and again, ā¦at last, I made a mistake at transferring to the next train. This is the full background.
Even so, Iām undoubtedly the guy that made a mistake in the end. I think Iāve said this before, as long as āsomeone is dragged down with me,ā I feel really upset. Especially for a person like me, ā¦unless I absolutely believe that Iām right, otherwise I donāt want to confront others.
ā¦I get it, nothing can be solved if I donāt clear everything up. However, I can also predict an end where no one benefits.
āā¦Sigh, how embarrassingā¦ā
I sincerely hate how āpowerlessā I am. Itās like Iām being possessed by an evil spirit, I feel so heavy.
The first day of the school trip. Honestly, itāsā¦way tougher than Iāve imagined, to the point where I donāt want to think about what happened today. Itās so depressing that I still feel tired despite just took a bath and went back to my room for a break.
I waited for the elevator at the end of the corridor deflatedly. During this time, thereās seems to be a group of 7 girls loudly talking as they walked here.
They lined up behind me and started whispering.
āEh, I remember the elevator here is pretty narrow, right?ā
āAh, ā¦itās only for 6 people at a time, right?ā
āThatās not good.ā
āWe can squeeze in, even though Nozomiās weight is quiteā¦ā
āShut up. However, even if weāre squeezing in, lookā¦ā
When they finished that sentence, I can feel someoneās staring at me fiercely from behind. To be precise, itās 7 servings of girlsā looking at a lusty woof. Although Iāve never been one before.
My forehead began to sweat. Then, I mumbled as I secretly left the scene while walking stiffly.
āā¦Ah, ā¦c-crap, I left something in the room. ā¦Yeah, yeah, yeah, ā¦jeez.ā
I brought up a useless excuse as I quickly walked away. Then, the elevator came, and I can hear the girls stepping into it as they talked.
ā¦Alright.
ā⦠Where're the stairs?ā
Right now, I think I finally realized why Iām not getting fat despite being an otaku. However, I guess Iām just overthinking this. After all, Iām a normie king. ā¦This is the 8th floor, but the lobby is on the 1st floor. Yep, I just need to walk down. Itās okay, thereās no problem, Iām absolutely okay. I feel like the lights on the stairs keep blinking. Of course, thereās no one around. Honestly, this is super scary, but itās fine.
āI got a bunch of time, anywayā¦ā
I mumbled pathetically to myself as I slowly walked down the stairs. Just as Iām unlocking the screen of my phone to lighten up the mood, the group chat window that I used appeared.
<Me: Is anyone free right now? Iām having a hard time staying inside my roomā¦>
<Tasuku Uehara: Sorry, Amano. Iām playing poker in the room, canāt go with you now.>
<Karen Tendou: Iām sorry, Amano-kun. The girl in the same room as me is discussing some serious relationship issues right nowā¦>
<Chiaki Hoshinomori: Iām going to the bath nowā¦>
<Aguri: Ha, the lonely and discussing otaku is rejected by everyone. How poor of you!>
āā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦ā
Iām even more depressed. Since I donāt really invite people on my own that often, my heart turns cold when I mustered my courage to talk to someone, and all of them rejected me. I really want to cry. I really want to die. I really want to drag Aguri-san into hell with me.
I put my phone into the pocket as I walked down the stairs quietly.
ā¦Although I guess everyone knew it at this point already, this is how I went through my first day of the school trip.
The seats in the buses are arranged in groups as well. So, I didnāt even get to talk to Uehara-kun, not to mention Tendou-san. As for the 5 people in Kaburagiās group (excluding me), I think they switched to ātreating me as entertainmentā mode. Their mischievous waves of laughter lasted for hours.
Recently, I entirely believed that Iām a normie. However, once I took a step out of the Game Hobby Club, I immediately became a loner again. Uehara-kun and Tendou-san, who can basically strike up a conversation with anyone, is way out of my league.
āHowever, ā¦I put a lot of effort in my own ways tooā¦ā
Actually, around a week before the trip, I tried to look for opportunities and muster up my remaining courage to try to talk to Kaburagiās group. ā¦It ended badly.
Perhaps itās because Iām acting like a servant, right now, they utterly despised my dignity as a man. They gave me an even more explicit attitude. Iām falling deeper and deeper into this abyss.
I deeply sighed as I passed through the stairs between the 3rd and 4th floor.
āā¦Sigh, ā¦I reallyā¦ā
Should I say I didnāt improve, how should I put it? In the end, I still donāt understand what did I do wrong, nor how I should self-improve. This is the lethal part.
For example, right now, ā¦should I just try my best and get closer to Kaburagi-sanās group in my room? Should I just wait and take the elevator calmly? ā¦I donāt get it. What would Uehara-kun or Tendou-san doā¦
āā¦For some reason, even though I canāt think of a real solution. I remembered the two conquering these obstacles with easeā¦ā
Crap, Iām getting even more depressed. Although I, a guy that canāt befriend anyone in high school, have started worrying over the school trip since year 1, this is way closer to hell than Iāve imagined. I wouldnāt have come if I knew it-
āā¦No.ā
-Just as Iām about to regret my decision, I slapped myself on the face.
āWhat am I talking about? Iām enjoying the last day with Tendou-san, and then Iāll give her the present that I worked my butt off to buy it. For this goal, everything so far is nothing.ā
Moreover, itās not like someone violently beat me up. Really, I canāt be that weak.
āā¦Right!ā
I cheered myself up and walked towards the lobby calmly, so-
āLook, that guy came to the lobby as well. Yeah, I won.ā
āSeriously, Kaburagi won again, damn.ā
-My groupmates, who seem to have taken the elevator first, laughed as soon as they saw me. At this moment, ā¦Iām finally breaking down.
āā¦!ā
I donāt know whether itās anger or frustration, even I knew that my face is flaring up right now. However, thatās why Iām all the more unwilling to admit defeat. I want to stop my face from blushing but to no avail.
I stopped embarrassingly and started trembling. By all means, I donāt even know what I should do anymore. I feel like thereās nowhere in the world that I can go to.
(This isā¦too ridiculousā¦)
Come to think of it, my brain knows itās not that ridiculous. However, ā¦my heart canāt cheer up right away. My heart is unwilling to cheer up.
I really donāt want them to see my ādepressedā side. As a gamer, and as a casual player, Iām not going to provide that sort of terrible entertainment even if it meant my life. Iām really determined. Butā¦
Currently, I canāt even find something I can rely on to get up once again.
Iā¦I canāt help it, ā¦just as Iām about to give up and plop my head down directly to them-
āK-Keita?ā
-At this moment, suddenly, someone called me.
I was alerted and quickly raised my face. Then, right thereā¦
āā¦Chiaki?ā
āY-Yes, ā¦phew.ā
Itās Chiaki, she seems to be still catching her breath for some reason. I fell speechless. Then, Chiaki smiled embarrassingly and quickly explained.
āUh, well, itās because Iām hastily changing my clothes to come out. ā¦Ah, no, itās not like that, well, I was at the bath! But I saw your message just as Iām taking off my clothes. ā¦Wait, forget about that, pretending you didnāt hear anything about me undressing!ā
Chiaki seems to be explaining to herself, and she seems to be freaking out too. ā¦This girl is still just as bad as talking to people as I do.
Looking at her, I immediately felt...all my helplessness disappeared in a flash.
I thinkā¦thereās somewhere for me to go in this world. Itās cramped, but itās very warm.
Once I snapped out of it, Kaburagi-sanās group seems to be looking at us with a jealous look. ā¦To Chiaki, ā¦I donāt feel right about this atmosphere. I canāt take it anymore if Chiaki got targeted as well.
Finally, my brain is working again. So, I urged Chiaki to walk to the stairs.
āWell, letās go upstairs, Chiaki.ā
āEh, weāre going up?ā
āI remembered it now, thereās a rest area with some vending machines on the 3rd floor. There are no tourists around, perhaps itās a good idea.ā
āAh, really. I got it, please go there.ā
āOkay, ā¦drinks on me, as thanks.ā
āHmm? Even though I donāt know why youāre thanking me, but Iāll gladly take it this time. Yeah!ā
Chiaki followed me on the stairs with a cheerful look.
As for me, ā¦I looked away from her and turned forward. Then, I quietly, ā¦really quietly so that she canāt hear it, and mumbled.
āā¦Thank you so much.ā
āAh, itās nothing, no sweat.ā
āH-How did you hear it!ā
āEhhhhh! Why are you mad at me!ā
Chiaki was suddenly scolded by me, so she freaked out and nearly cried. ā¦Jeez.
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āYeah, yeah! Thatās it! The 4-star game ratings are really the most reliable and should be referenced!ā
āExactly! Uh, although 5-star and 1-star ratings are just exaggerations. Especially when Iām hesitating whether I should buy It or not, sometimes I really have to thank 5 stars and 1 star for that final push!ā
āYes, yes!ā
āHowever, from what Iāve remembered, I think only 2-star to 4-star ratings can balance out between the pros and cons of the game!ā
5 minutes after we met up, a boy and a girl are chatting with each other energetically in the vending machine area of the 3rd floor.
Chiaki leaned forward excitedly after hearing what I said as if sheās like, āI agree too.ā
āYeah, yeah! Ay, on the other hand, Iām deeply resonating when there are 5-star ratings for a famous game. Also, I feel good when I give a 1-star rating to a trash game too!ā
At the same time, I nodded vigorously at what she said.
āYes, yes! Sometimes, when Iām playing a truly crappy game, although Iāll feel itās way too harsh for a 1-star, I feel saved at the same time. For example, ā¦ah, luckily, I wasnāt the only person that feels that kind of annoyance and anxiety!ā
āAgreed! Also, I like those ratings that list out the bad points while saying, ā5-star, because Iām super impressed!ā Itās really reassuring to read them!ā
āI get it! Even though some ratings lack fairness, I still feel like thereās no problem with that! However, by all means, itās just based on personal preferences.ā
āYeah.ā
At this moment, the two otakus are finally willing to pause the exciting conversation.
Iām drinking the soda that I didnāt see at home (which tastes just the same) as I looked around.
The quiet rest area on the 3rd floor. A simple space with 4 vending machines, a trash can, and two sets of double seats.
However, it seems that no tourists are renting the rooms on this floor today. Itās tranquil. Aside from that, thereās a bit of distance between the rest area and the stairs, so Otobuki students wouldnāt come. I guess this is an excellent place to kill time. Butā¦
āā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦ā
Even so, due to the incident just then, I fear that Kaburagi-sanās group with come and look for us. So, Iām a bit worried.
I guess Chiaki wanted to draw my attention, so she tried to speak sarcastically to irritate me.
āYouāre poor, unlike me, who got in the same group as Tendou-san.ā
āUghhh, ā¦you detestable seaweed!ā
The bean sprout that canāt be in the sunlight, how miserable.ā
Chiaki chuckled before taking a sip of her soda. ā¦Although sheās usually my irritable rival, for today, I feel like Iām saved by her from the bottom of my heart.
I canāt but smile, Chiaki replied excitedly.
āThatās great, Keita. Youāre still yourself.ā
āWhat are you talking about?ā
āWhat am I talking about.ā
After Chiaki smiled bitterly, she carefully put the soda can on the table with both of her hands. ā¦She looks way different in a yukata compared to me. It looks adorable on her. Perhaps itās because of her figures. Even though I donāt want to admit this, ā¦in reality, this girl is beautiful.
ā¦I still feel like I couldnāt calm down, so I canāt help but look away from her.
āHowever, ā¦why canāt we find a chance to talk to Tendou-san recently? Thereās a lot of chance for the two of us to talk like this.ā
āYeah.ā
Chiaki agreed and continued helplessly.
āā¦Like right now, Iām the same group as Tendou-san, so I really want to clear it up as soon as possible. I feel like Iām doing something bad with you, ā¦even though weāre completely friends currently.ā
Chiaki smiled after finishing that. ā¦It looks like sheās not forcing her smile, and it made me press my chest in relief.
(O-Of course. Thereās no way for her to still love a guy that brutally rejected her just then. Really, Iām being way too self-conscious nowā¦)
Perhaps Iām the guy thatās viewing Chiaki as a girl somehow. Iām way too girly. I need to reflect on myself.
This time, I looked at Chiaki directly and started chatting with her.
āBy the way, Chiaki, do you play Pokemon?ā
Chiakiās eyes brightened at my question as she leaned forward to me again.
āYeah! Of course! Keita, Keita, you play Pokemon too!ā
āOf course! Eh, howās your progress right now?ā
āWell, ā¦ah, ā¦since Iāve been creating games recently, so I didnāt progress a lot. ā¦All of my team members are at around Lv.30ā¦ā
āEh, really! Me too, me too. Just the same as you!ā
Usually, I wouldāve played a lot more, but because I was working. So, my progress coincidentally matched with Chiakiās.
Chiaki suggested to me in excitement.
āWell, well, nowās a good time for a battle, letās battle!ā
āI was thinking just the same thing! I was looking for a suitable opponent!ā
āMe too, me too! Hiya, itās best when thereās a friend, indeed!ā
When Iām looking at Chiakiās hazeless smile as sheās talking lovingly, surprisingly, I will also feel blessed and satisfied too.
Chiaki seems to canāt hold it anymore and stood up. Then, she smiled and suggested it to me.
āWell, Iām grabbing my console now. Letās play-ā
-Just as sheās about to finish that sentence.
āG-Good evening, Amano-kunā¦and Chiaki-san.ā
A blonde beauty thatās a bit nervousā¦my girlfriend, whoās wearing a yukata, came and talked to us.
We immediately stopped chatting. At the same time, we answered Tendou-san nervously in unison. āG-Good evening.ā ā¦For some reason, even though we didnāt do anything wrong, we feel like weāre being interrogated.
An awkward silence fell between us three. ā¦During this time, I suddenly realized.
(Eh, isnāt this the best time for us to explain the confession?)
Weāre the only three here, thereās no one around. This situation allows us to talk in peace.
I think Tendou-san and Chiaki realized this as well. Thatās why weāre all nervous for some reason.
āā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦ā
Everyone is still unwilling to speak up. ā¦I have to be determined here.
After making up my mind, Iām finally going to mention āthat thing.ā I took a deep breath.
āā¦W-Well, Tendou-san! Thereās something that Chiaki and I-ā
For a moment, Tendou-sanās face is filled with anxiety. But, even so, we have to talk about this sooner or later, so I mustered up my courage-
āAh, ā¦w-well, itās time for me to take a bath!ā
āEh?ā
-Just as Tendou-san and I mentally prepared ourselves, Chiaki was the one that avoided it.
I fell speechless. Then, Chiaki got near me and whispered.
(Keita, this is a rare chance for you to talk to Tendou-san alone on the trip! Please take the chance while it lasts!)
(Eh? But Chiaki, if we donāt explain it now, I donāt feel comfortable during the tripā¦)
(Thatās just something trivial! Yes, I will never destroy the chance for my friend and his girlfriend to create good memories just to talk about those things!)
Chiaki suggested this to me with a warm smile, ā¦this girl is reallyā¦
As for me, ā¦although I was perplexed for a second, I still decided to accept her favor.
āUh, well, Chiaki, Iāll battle you next time.ā
I waved at her. Tendou-san is still hesitating. āEh, wellā¦ā Chiaki waved at me before quickly leaving.
āYes, please! Well, well, Karen-san, take your time chatting!ā
Chiaki quickly left the corridor. I looked at her back before urging Tendou-san to sit down.
āAh, take a seat, Tendou-san.ā
āEh? Ah, okay, wellā¦ā
Tendou-san nervously took a seat at where Chiaki was. Sheās still a bit confused, so I tried my best to be cheerful.
āUh, thank you, Tendou-san. You came here because youāre worried about me, right?ā
āEh? Ah, y-yes. However, well, I canāt leave the room for a while, sorryā¦ā
Tendou-san plopped her head down deflatedly. ā¦Ah, Tendou-san showing a melancholic look in a yukata, sheās stunning. Itās like a movie. Phewā¦
Wait, this is wrong. I have to smooth things over! I quickly shook my head and waved.
āNo, no, no, thatās not true! Iām the one that shouldnāt say all those depressing things!ā
āThatās obviously notā¦ā
āMoreover, itās like what you just saw, Chiaki was there for me!ā
āReally. ā¦Chiaki-sanā¦is faster than anyoneā¦ā
āTendou-san?ā
F-For some reason, the more I tried to comfort her, the more depressed Tendou-san is. What should I even doā¦
I scratched the back of my head, ā¦and then I squeezed one of my few topics for chatting left.
āT-Tendou-san, you play Pokemon?ā
I sincerely hate that I can still only talk about gaming in this situation. However, thatās who I am, so I canāt help it.
As for Tendou-san, ā¦she shook her head.
āNo, Iāve never played it.ā
āR-Really.ā
āYep.ā
āā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦ā
āā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦ā
Whatās wrong with me? I ended the topic just because the person didnāt play the same game as me. Am I an idiot? Thatās why I canāt get a friend. Thatās what I deserved.
During this time, Tendou-san seems to have realized that Iām having a hard time, so she started talking about Pokemon.
āUh, is the latest title in the series fun?ā
āEh? Ah, yes! Itās enjoyable! Iām having fun even if Iām playing alone!ā
āReally? But Amano-kun, wonāt you battle the others?ā
āYep, I canāt find a good opponentā¦and I donāt have any friends at allā¦ā
Crap, this is embarrassing. Tendou-san is worrying over me once again.
Just as Iām sweating while trying to think of something, ā¦Tendou-san suddenly clapped her hands and gave me a bright smile.
āW-Well, then Iāll give Pokemon a try-ā
However, at this moment, I finally remembered the promise I made with Chiaki. To prevent Tendou-san from worrying over me, I smiled and continued.
āAh, but! Chiaki seems to be willing to battle me! The most miraculous part is that she has the same progress as me! Hiya, thatās precious! This is really precious!ā
At this moment, ā¦Tendou-sanās eyes lost all energy.
āReally, ā¦Chiaki-san will play with you, ā¦I seeā¦ā
āY-Yes! Tendou-san, so you donāt need to worry about me! Iām okay!ā
āHaha, ā¦r-reallyā¦ā
Eh? T-This is weird. Tendou-sanās looking away from me. Why? Is she getting dumbfoundedly at how incapable her boyfriend is? Or is it I didnāt comfort her enoughā¦
āā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦ā
The conversation paused again. Only the sounds from the operating vending machines are echoing throughout the place.
ā¦Strange. Staying alone with my beautiful girl at night on the school trip, ā¦isnāt this literally the normiest scene possible?
However, what is this dense atmosphere that feels like the intro of a horror game?
Tendou-san suddenly laughed on her own.
āā¦I saw it from afar. ā¦You and Chiaki-san seemed to be having a good time just thenā¦ā
āUgh!ā
What? I feel way worse than when Iām in the same room as Kaburagi-san and his friends.
I managed to keep a smile on my face and told her.
āT-Tendou-san, Iām a million times happier when Iām alone with you right now!ā
āReally?ā
āYeah.ā
āā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦ā
āā¦ā¦ā¦...ā
āā¦Haha.ā
Tendou-san suddenly gave me a mischievous smile. Honestly, it feels super creepy and freaked me out.
During this time, Tendou-san quickly tried to smooth things over.
āN-No, everythingās fine. I get it. From the conversation, youāre just saying that to compliment me. I understand that I should have a more depressed reaction. However, ā¦I donāt want to.ā
She clenched her fist tightly at this point.
āI, Karen Tendou, ā¦even if I deeply understand that itās just compliment, thereās no way for me to not feel happy when you praised meeeee! Uwahhhhh!ā
āUwahā¦? T-Tendou-san, whatās wrong! Why are you crying!ā
āEven if my brain rejected it, my body still feels excited! Amano-kunā¦ā
āEh, why are you saying this in public! Are you okay!ā
Iām insanely worried right now. However, Tendou-san tried her best and told me this with tears forming in her eyes.
āI still really love youā¦ā
āM-Me too! Wait, no, no, no, no, what is this! What do you mean by āstillā! I strongly feel that Iām disappointing you!ā
āYouāre wrong. Iāll never be disappointed at you. Itās just that Iā¦ā
āYou?ā
āā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦ā
After I asked her again, Tendou-san seems to be pondering something for a second. Then, ...she suddenly took out a tissue paper from nowhere and wiped her tears and snivel. Then, she finally returned to normal and answered with a smile.
āNo, itās nothing. Please donāt mind it, Amano-kun.ā
āEh?ā
Suddenly, I feel like Iām suddenly distanced away from her. For some reason, this reminds me of the Tendou-san that I just knew. Even though sheās gentle to everyone, ā¦I feel like our hearts arenāt sincerely connected.
Just as Iām being swept by waves of insecurities, Tendou-san returned to normal already and changed the topic.
āPlease listen to me, Amano-kun. Today, Chiaki-san, ā¦haha, itās funny. We went to the playground for a bit when weāre in groups-ā
After that, Tendou-san talked about what happened to her today cheerfully. I can only answer with a smileā¦
So, the first day of the school trip ended with a bunch of insecurities.
Tasuku Uehara
The second day is a class tour around Kyoto, so thereās really nothing worth talking about.
Taking a bus to tour around the temples and pagodas, I barely listened to the guideās explanation. Then, I saw the major landmarks with my friends, sometimes taking photos and emptying my brain as I walked.
We can chat, after all. So, itās more interesting than school. However, Iām suspecting whether this is way better than the daily joyful moments I have.
āI didnāt expect this to be quite plain, the school trip.ā
Masaya stayed next to me as he said that. This is a really emotionless thought, but heās right.
For us, we just feel this because our group is just the same friends in school. If the usual members act together like always, itās just our daily lives, even when the place is different. The worst part is that weāre not interested in temples and pagodas.
However, despite my look, sometimes, Iāll be attracted to Kyotoās view as well. In moments like that, I canāt help but feel⦠āAh, I really want to see this with Aguri.ā Of course, I donāt want Masaya to laugh at me, so I didnāt put up such an attitude.
However, in this world, someone is innocent enough to say their thoughts out loud directly, not to mention the emotion or attitude.
āAh, I really want to see this with Tendou-san.ā
A lonely boy is watching a buddha statueās reflection on the Kyoto-chi Pond near the Kinkaku-ji. Heās mumbling intoxicatedly.
I realized a friend of mine is already left behind his groupmates, so I helplessly sighed as I tried to strike up a conversation.
āHey, Lonely.ā
āWhat kind of straightforward and pathetic nickname is that. Stop it, Uehara-kunā¦ā
The lonely boy gave me a powerless look. After I confirmed that Kaburagiās group is still off the distance, I stood next to Amano, and we watched the golden structures together.
āHaving a girlfriend and yet you two are in different places, does it feel lonelier than just being alone, Amano?ā
āWhat kind of normie theory is that. ā¦Perhaps the past Amano will say it, but I guess youāre right, maybe.ā
Amano looked at the scenery hopelessly and depressingly. His situation is that he doesnāt even have a friend in the class, the level of loneliness is outstanding at this point. Actually, all I need to do is just hang out with him more, but Iām not on good terms with Kaburagiās group. If I stick close to Amano to counter them, itāll just make Amano uncomfortable when weāre separated into groups. This is what I want to avoid.
The best I could do is to talk to Amano when weāre in a class activity like this.
Suddenly, Amano took a good look at my face and sighed.
āā¦Sigh, Uehara-kun is really like Romeo, after allā¦ā
āHuh? What are you talking about?ā
āBut Romeo always complicated the misunderstandings, and then he died. Youāre just the sameā¦ā
āHey, you still got the nerve to insult your only friend right now.ā
I pretended to grab Amanoās shirt. He smiled and said, āIām sorry.ā
Then, even though itās just a simple explanation, he confessed that thereās seem to be a distance and disparity between him and Tendou. Heās pretty upset with it.
I started looking at the golden buildings and gave him a bitter smile.
āWell, when it comes to whether people match her or not, most men in this world canāt do anything about it. Youāll just get upset if you care too much about it.ā
āYouāre right. From my perspective, ā¦I also feel like itās fair to disappoint others. Howeverā¦ā
Amano mumbled as he looked up to the slightly clouded sky.
āIf I was the one that stained Tendou-sanās smile, I can never forgive myself.ā
āā¦Whatās wrong?ā
Heās not a confident person, but I feel this situation is more complicated than it sounds.
After I asked, Amano let out a complicated āUghā¦ā mumble.
āInstead of saying anything specific happened, itās more like this accumulated over time. For example, I really canāt get over Tendou-sanās attitude. Also, ā¦Kaburagi-san and his friends are more-ā
Just as Amano is about to finish that, he suddenly looked behind me and paused.
I thought whether somethingās wrong and turned back, then I realizedā¦
āKaburagiā¦ā
Unexpectedly, Kaburagi is already coming up to us with a mischievous smile. His 4 groupmates are right behind him.
āB-Bye, Uehara-kun.ā
Amano hastily left me and planned to group up with Kaburagi. However, Kaburagi ignored Amano completely. Instead, he came up to me and smiled, pretending that heās my friend.
āIām sorry. I didnāt mean to interrupt while you guys are having fun, Uehara-kun.ā
Kaburagi usually calls me āUeharaā directly, yet heās imitating Amano and add a ā-kun.ā The 4 groupmates behind him are snickering quietly. ā¦I bet heās joking with the friendship I have with Amano. Itās okay for Masaya to joke with me, but I donāt know these guys, and they still tried to mock me. Itās really pissing me off.
However, itāll bring nothing but trouble to Amano if I start a fight here. So, I explicitlyā¦didnāt react and ignored Kaburagi, paying my full attention to the elegant Kinkaku-ji.
āā¦Hmph!ā
Kaburagiās disappointed at my reaction. Typically, weāll dismiss and return to our own circles. ā¦Except for today, Kaburagi seems to be braver than usual.
Itās not just Amano. I guess he wanted to piss me off before going back too. So, he added one more insultā¦thatās wholly unnecessary and cheap.
āUehara-kun, help me say hi to your brainless and indecent girlfriend as well.ā
For a moment, I was so pissed off that heās about to receive a punch to the face. However, my calm side immediately stopped me.
(The school trip will be in ruins if I did that.)
If I start a fight here, ā¦itāll be awkward for my groupmatesā¦and my friends. I barely made a decision here and quenched my anger, so I decided to just insult Kaburagi back. Anyway, I turned to him- During this time, I finally realized-
āā¦Eh?ā
Amano is alreadyā¦the lonely and weak Keita Amano, is already grabbing Kaburagi by his collar.
āWha-ā
Including Kaburagiās groupmates and me, ā¦they donāt understand whatās happening, not to mention Kaburagi himself. All of us are observing this, speechless.
Then, ā¦the first one to speak up is Kaburagi.
Heās still trying to laugh it off while seeking acknowledgment from his friends, instead of talking to Amano directly.
āWow, mad teenagers are super scary. Are you getting sick from playing too many video games? What a pain-ā
āShut your damn mouth.ā
Amano interrupted him viciously with an unprecedently deep voice. Kaburagi immediately fell silent. His groupmates are holding their breaths.
ā¦Amanoās eyes are entirely locked on him, no one knows whatāll he do next. What an unusual and tense atmosphere.
Luckily, thereās no tourist around at this time. ā¦This may spiral out of control quickly. In reality, another group of people is already approaching us from behind.
Perhaps Kaburagi feels hopeful with that, so he tried to get his hippy smile out again. ā¦However, after he looked at Amanoās eyes again, his face immediately froze. Itās hard to blame him, after allā¦
āā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦ā
-That was our first time to see someone going mad this completely.
That was entirely different than when heās angry at me. Heās going insane at this point.
Itās not about whether heās good at fighting already. I can feel Amano is so determined thatā¦heāll bit his opponent viciously even if only his head remains. ā¦Itās incredibly terrifying.
Amano is grabbing Kaburagiās collar even more tightly.
āā¦Eek.ā
Kaburagiās completely frightened at this point. This isā¦not just a small-scale conflict or argument anymore.
At this moment, I finally realized and interrupted them.
āHey, A-Amano, stop it!ā
I loudly dissuaded him, and it made Amano snap out of it. His arms immediately gave up as Kaburagi escaped.
Kaburagi returned to his groupmates as heās choking and coughing loudly, ā¦his face turned red out of embarrassment and anger. He glared at us fiercely before running away, and his friends quickly followed behind him. I can see that theyāre just as frightened as Kaburagi does.
I look at Kaburagiās group leaving dazedly. Suddenly, Amano looked back and said, āEh.ā
I immediately freaked out, and my whole body turned stiff. Howeverā¦
āUh, well, let me ask you thisā¦ā
If I had to describe Amanoās expression, -in a sense, it fits his usual style, and itās actually quite embarrassing. His eyes are full of tears of regret.
He pointed at the direction where his groupmates just left as he tremblingly asked.
āDo you thinkā¦I-I can still get myā¦happyā¦school trip back?ā
āā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦ā
I shook my head silently. Then, I patted his head slightly.
āGive up. It was already a total game over just then.ā
āYouāve got to be kidding meā¦ā
The lonely gamerās momentum disappeared right away as he sighed deflatedly with his head down.
I gave Amano a dumbfounded look. He then mumbled frustratedly.
āDamn, itās all Aguri-sanās fault. ā¦That stinky ass galā¦ā
āHey, hey, hey, youāre cursing her?ā
āItās okay for me to curse her.ā
āHaha, who are you to Aguri. ā¦Alright, itās time for us to go, Amano.ā
I pushed Amanoās back and urged him to step forward as I laughed it off.
However, on the other handā¦
āā¦Seriously, who are you. ā¦No, who am I to Aguriā¦ā
I canāt help but frown as wave after wave of bitter regret swept through my chest.
*
In the end, Amano still canāt merge with his group on the 2nd day. ā¦Itās not just that. The decisive barrier is already here, and the sightseeing seems to be over. However, he doesnāt seem upset to the point that I have to worry about. ā¦I was confused, so I took the chance to sit next to Amano on the bus going back to the hotel. I asked him why he doesnāt mind. Then, he answered with a shocked look.
āItās because I donāt really regret it. Itās different than why I got on the wrong train yesterday. Even though I feel like āI messed upā today, but Iāll never hope for a ārestart.ā This is unbelievable. ā¦Ah, but I guess thatās what a psycho thinks, right?ā
I canāt bring myself to face Amano, ā¦while heās saying all that with a bitter smile.
āSigh! Damn, why canāt Iā¦ā
I keep scratching my head to try and vent out the frustration. The girls that came to the guysā room to play was slightly startled.
āWhatās wrong, Tasuku? Feeling lonely for not seeing your girlfriend?ā
Masaya said this jokingly. This guyās casual attitude is really precious in times like this.
I laughed and said, āshut upā before standing up from the cushion.
āWell, Iām taking a bath.ā
āOkay, take your time.ā
The hotel on the 2nd day is different than yesterday, which is just a straight public bathhouse with a huge tub. Although the onsen seems to be man-made, it still got a vast open-air bathhouse. Iāve heard that there are towels and showering kits provided. So, after I put on the yukata, I left the room with my phone and wallet only.
I slowly walked on the corridor made of wooden floor that produces noises when you step on it. It seems that our school is the only one renting the hotel today. I can hear my classmateās shouts everywhere. ā¦Although Iām part of the school trip as well, I donāt like these noises when Iām thinking about stuff.
I picked the shortest route to the bathhouse and just walked casually in a direction with fewer people. During this time, I suddenly realized that I can call Aguri to chat with me here. However, Iām still regretting the incident on the day. So, I donāt feel like meeting her right now.
Even so, ā¦Iāll accept it if she invited me. ā¦I carried this pathetic thought as I wandered around the corridor while holding my smartphone- During this time.
āOuch.ā āSorry!ā
Just as Iām about to make a turn, I accidentally bumped into someone. I didnāt consider this since thereās not a lot of people here.
I apologized and tried to walk on the side. ā¦At this moment, I noticed the personās signature bright blonde hair thatās impossible to unsee.
āAh, Uehara-kun, itās you?ā
The blonde girl sighed in relief. I was a bit irritated and complained to her.
āWhatās that reaction? I feel like youāre feeling upset for immediately apologizing.ā
āAmazing. It looks like you really understand how a girl thinks.ā
āOh, you can rely on me if you want to know about a girlās heart, ā¦or not.ā
The pointless conversation replaced our greetings. I rubbed the back of my neck and said, āThen?ā and urged Tendou to speak up.
āCan I ask why is our school idol, whoās being chased all the time, strolling depressingly around a corridor which no one goes through on a school trip?ā
āHey, hey, thatās my line, Uehara-kun, whoās famous for being smooth and slick.ā
We glared at each other fiercely for a while. Then-
āā¦Sigh.ā
-Both sighed deeply at the same time.
We leaned on the wall of the corridor directly and started exchanging intelligence.
āSo, Ms. Tendou, howāre you doing on the trip?ā
āSo-so, ā¦negatively. How about you, Mr. Uehara?ā
āSo-so, ā¦negatively.ā
We sighed again. Tendou put her finger on her forehead as if sheās trying to suppress the headache.
āCouples separated in different classes is indeed a big problem.ā
āYeah, thereās virtually no time for us to have time alone. Although thereāre ways for us to squeeze some time outā¦ā
After I said that, my groupmatesā faces flashed in my mind. ā¦When Iām having fun with those guys, I donāt think I can excuse myself and leave just because I want to see my girlfriend. I guess Tendouās more or less the same.
Itās not accurate to say thereās no way for the couples to meet. However, itās indeed hard for us to see each other directly.
Tendou mumbled.
āā¦Iām so useless, even Chiaki-san acted immediatelyā¦ā
āHoshinomori?ā
I donāt understand whatās she saying and tilted my head. But Tendou doesnāt want to explain it.
She looked up to the roof of the corridor and mumbled to herself.
āLove, what even is itā¦ā
āHey, hey, hey, that line is straight out of a fairy tale.ā
I gave her a bitter smile. Then, Tendou cleared her throat embarrassingly with a blush on her face.
āThis isnāt funny. Please think about it. Right now, when you consider the way that Amano-kun and I have interacted with each other, ā¦which action sets us apart from friends?ā
āDo I even need to say it, youā¦ā
To her question, I canāt help but blush before looking away and answer.
āA-Arenāt you twoā¦going to kiss or do something even more in the future?ā
Upon hearing my answer, Tendouās face flared up even harder than I do. Sheās pissed.
āWhat a shallow way of thinking! Thatās what a flirty boy looks like!ā
āEh! Didnāt you say something similar to Amano in the past! Like that time, you said that you want to take the relationship to the next levelā¦ā
āT-Thatās not related! Moreover, actually, Amano-kun and Iā¦have never done anything like that before!ā
āIs that something you should be proud of?ā
āI-Iām really envious of you. Your morals are flimsy!ā
āShut up, Tendou! Iā¦I havenāt done anything with my girlfriend either!ā
āā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦ā
āā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦ā
The argument immediately stopped. We dropped our shoulders deflatedly before speaking up helplessly.
āTendou, ā¦letās stop this kind of pointless mutual attacksā¦ā
āYouāre right, ā¦Iām sorryā¦ā
I think we ended up in a frustrating situation every time we met. What is this? Why are things also going south whenever Iām talking to Tendou?
Tendou continued. āActually-ā I guess she wanted to lead the discussion.
āIf we eliminate all those kinds of direct actions, ā¦how should a couple prove to everyone that theyāre really dating?ā
āItās hard to say. ā¦For example, how long the relationship is, whether you two are on good terms, does the couple match each other, ā¦like those?ā
āā¦If those are real standards, Iām not confident in myselfā¦ā
āHmmā¦ā
I canāt help but feel a tinge of pain in my heart after hearing Tendou. Indeed, ā¦when compared to Hoshinomori and Aguri, the girls that are the closest to Amano, I really donāt think Tendou can stand out in those categories. I-Itās not just Tendou. Iām the same. No matter how you think about it, right now, the closest person to Aguri, ā¦the person thatās the most connected to her, should beā¦
After I fell silent, Tendou slowly brought out her smartphone. Just as Iām looking at her, she scrolled on the screen and said something unexpected.ā
āā¦Why donāt we ask Konoha-san too?ā
āHuh?ā
I was surprised at the sudden and mysterious choice. Tendou answered with a smile.
āIn a way, isnāt she the most energetic person among us? So, I think she might have an unexpected clear answer for this kind of questions.ā
āI get it. I guess it makes sense. ā¦However, are you two that close before?ā
āInstead of saying weāre close, ā¦Konoha-san comforted my worries down in the past. I got a unilateral good impression on her from that on. We would text each other sometimes, ā¦sigh, even though sheās replying quite rashly.ā
āReplying rashly?ā
āYes. ā¦Look, itās like this.ā
Tendou showed me her phone with a bitter smile after saying that.
The screen showed the message history between them.
<Me: Konoha-san, what do you think love is?>
<Konoha-san: What, did you hit your head on the trip? Youāre really annoying.>
Itās really rash. Uh, ā¦honestly, I deeply understand how Konoha-san feels. I feel like Tendouās way of chatting is indeed annoying, and only a hipster will talk to people like that. That interaction is a good example.
However, I think Tendou liked Konoha-sanās response too. She chuckled happily and typed the same question again.
<Me: Seriously, Konoha-san, how would you define love?>
The tone is very annoying. What does she want? I will never befriend a girl like that.
Honestly, I thought she wouldnāt reply again. ā¦Unexpectedly, the answer came around 10 seconds later. Tendouās smartphone vibrated.
Tendou unlocked the screen as I peeked. The answer isā¦
<Konoha Hoshinomori: Sex.>
āUwahā¦ā
This girl is super straightforward. Tendou and I were shocked. ā¦I-I didnāt know Konoha-san is a girl like this before? Is she showing her real side because Tendou is really annoying?
We fell into a mood thatās hard to describe. ā¦To be frank, this feels really awkward. I wanted to leave, so I added a āwellā as I stood up from the wall behind. However, at this moment, Tendouās phone vibrated again.
I bet Konoha-san randomly thought of something to cover it up. While Iām still dragging my feet, I requested Tendou to let me see her phone again.
In the end, we received a surprising message from her. ā¦Itās something unexpectedly sincere.
<Konoha Hoshinomori: Until recently, Iām quite confident that love is just sex. However, I fell into some complicated troubles a while ago, so perhaps itās not just that.>
Her words made us look at each other for a second. ā¦After that, Tendou typed her response.
<Me: Konoha-san, then what do you think now?>
Tendou sent her message out, yet the response isnāt coming. Even so, I stayed, and Tendou kept staring at her phone.
So, ā¦around a minute later, Tendouās phone vibrated.
We confirmed the screen quite nervously. ā¦The screen showed Konoha-sanās honest and straightforward answer that she genuinely believed in.
<Konoha Hoshinomori: I think love doesnāt just surpass rationality. Itās a wave of stupidity and enthusiasm that easily overwhelm even desires.>
āā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦ā
Her answer made us fell speechless. ā¦I donāt understand how Tendou feels, but, at least for me, ā¦what she saidā¦deeply stabbed into my chest. I canāt help but look away from the screen immediately due to the pain.
(Ifā¦if thatās the case, ā¦the person that embodies that kind of stupidity and enthusiasm the most isā¦)
Crap, my chest is overwhelmed in pain. I just said ābyeā to Tendou before leaving quickly, not even bothering to hear her response.
So, just as Iām about to make a turn, I looked back and glanced at Tendouā¦
āā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦ā
Sheās still staring at the screen of her phone.
Like a ghost standing alone on a desolate corridor.
Karen Tendou
āā¦Phewā¦ā
I finally got a hold of myself after I sank my shoulders into the bath of the open-air onsen.
Upon bidding farewell to Uehara-kun, I stood on the corridor for a while alone. Although Kyoto is in Kansai, the wooden floor still feels cold. To avoid other people, I came to the corner of the onsen after arriving at the bathhouse.
At the edge of the spacious bath, I hid behind some rocks to enjoy the hot water. Thenā¦
āWow! This is way bigger than Iāve imagined!ā
I can hear girls talking near the entrance of the bath. So, I hid even deeper to avoid being seen by them.
I already gave up on dealing with the attention that my hair and look get. Even so, itās still embarrassing for someone to stare at my naked body.
Just as Iām trying my best to disappear from everyone and remain silent, I suddenly remembered Amano-kun.
(Right, ā¦he mentioned that heās not really getting along with the rest of his classmatesā¦)
Honestly, I donāt get whatās he saying since Iāve always lived in the spotlight.
After Iāve experienced such a vulnerable and defenseless state, I think I can slightly understand the helplessness he talked about.
(Really, you really hate being seen when youāre not confident in yourselfā¦)
Itās like people staring at my face when my bangs werenāt behaving. From Amano-kunās perspective, perhaps thatās everything in school for him.
Amano-kun is a very attractive person in my eyes. However, I can guarantee that he doesnāt think of himself in the same way. Thatās why heā¦
At this point, I canāt help but splash hot water onto my face.
(Iāve never thought about this beforeā¦)
Come to think of it, Iāve always cared for myself only. When I wish to know whatās on Amano-kunās mind, all I wanted to know is how he thinks about me.
Iāve rarely pondered Amano-kunās troubles or frustrations.
(However, Hoshinomori-san and Aguri-san must haveā¦)
Suddenly, I remembered when his little brother gave me a despising look. Why would a brocon like him give me such a low rating? I thinkā¦I can slightly understand now.
āā¦Sigh.ā
Iām getting weaker and weaker. ā¦Iāve always been like this. Once it involves Amano-kun, Iāll totally lose my cool. I canāt maintain my confidence and pride to my own abilities, the Karen Tendou thatās upright and straightforward. Where is he looking, what is he thinking, what does he think about me. I really mind them.
āIā¦ā
I clenched my fist tightly in front of my chest. I feel really guilty. I feel totally different than the love theory that Konoha-san proposed. Iā¦I shouldā¦
ā?ā
At this moment, I noticed someone is approaching here. The person is pushing away the hot water as she walks.
I quickly wiped the tears on the corner of my eyes and calmed myself down. Then, I pretended to be the usual āKaren Tendouā and waited for the person to show up.
Then, a couple seconds passed.
āUwah!ā
Perhaps she didnāt expect someone to be in this corner, so she let out a gasp in surprise.
I smiled politely at her.
āAh, sorry for scaring you-ā
āā¦Karen-san?ā
āEh?ā
The girl spoke up confusingly to me, so I observed her again. A white, charming skin thatās slightly reddish, a good figure that canāt be hidden with a small towel, ā¦and a beautiful face along with her signature hair-
āā¦Chiaki-san?ā
I answered in shock. She quickly nodded, and itās clear that sheās a bit nervous.
āAh, yes, itās me. ā¦Well, ā¦w-what a coincidence. C-Can I sit next to you?ā
āEh? Sure, of course, help yourself.ā
I moved a bit aside as I said that. As for Chiaki-san, she folded her towel as she slowly sank into the pool. Then, she squinted and let out a relaxed āphewā noise. ā¦How adorable.
I asked the little animal type girl, whoās chilling relaxedly.
āBy the way, why are you coming to a corner like thisā¦ā
āā¦Youāre asking this? Are you asking a loner that?ā
āā¦Iām really sorry.ā
āHey, Iām the one that wants to ask why a person like you is here, that freaked me out. Itās like opening the treasure chest at the start of the maze and ending up in a final boss fight.ā
āThat wouldnāt just freak you out, right. Usually, people will think thereās a bug.ā
āEh, Karen-san, you got a bug in you?ā
āThatās really impolite. Iām just here to avoid others.ā
āI get it. Beautiful girls attract attention, after all.ā
Chiaki-san gave me a reveled look as she expressed her thoughts like it has nothing to do with her. ā¦Didnāt she know a lot of girls are envious of her figure too?
āā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦ā
Since thereās nothing to talk about now, I canāt help but stare at the night sky. While the stars are sparkling from the hot steam, itās far from pleasing to the eye.
(In comparison, ā¦when Iām climbing the stairs to Starry Plaza, that night sky I saw from the middle of the hill seems to be even more beautifulā¦)
Right away, I remembered the things that happened on that night and snapped out of it. I canāt help but look to the side, and I realized Chiaki-san is also staring at the sky dazedly as well.
(ā¦Now would be a good timeā¦to confirm what Iāve seenā¦)
I wanted to ask her, but my mouth just opens and closes. I canāt muster a word out.
How weak do I have to be? Iām ashamed of myself from the bottom of the heart, so I canāt help but lower my head. Then-
āā¦Well, something happened on the night when we played GOM.ā
-Chiaki-san seems to have seen what I was thinking, and she suddenly brought this up. I raised my face. As for her, sheās still staring at the sky.
āā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦ā
A couple seconds of silence followed soon as if sheās hesitating. However, ā¦sheās different. She looked at me with determination boiling in her eyes. Then, with an embarrassed smile, she revealed everything to me.
āI confessed to Keita, and then he rejected me.ā
āā¦Eh?ā
The truth suddenly revealed itself. It made me speechless.
What she said was really surprising. Moreover, ā¦for some reason, she looks really charming.
Chiaki-san then clapped her hands together like sheās sincerely sorry and apologized to me.
āS-Sorry, Karen-san! E-Even though I know Keita is dating you, I still confessed to her. Iām such a horrible person! Uh, so, please despise and scold me however you want!ā
āEh, ā¦ehhh?ā
āDo it, you donāt need to hold back, Karen-san! Please call me a foxy woman until youāre satisfied! Ah, no, I failed to seduce Keita in the end, so itās not appropriate to call me a foxy woman. Uh, well, ā¦you can just call me a pig! Iām a pig! Bu, bu!ā
āWhat are you going on about! No, please donāt do that! Please stop!ā
āB-B-But, thereās this dragon of āAtonementā ravaging in my heart right nowā¦ā
āYouāre going with that again! Arenāt there too many things that are ravaging your heart! Please get a hold of yourself!ā
āI understand. ā¦Iā¦I will bite my tongue to get a hold my self! Hnnng!ā
āStop it!ā
āOw, ow, Karen-san. S-Stop it.ā
Chiaki-san is really trying to bite her tongue. So, I pinched her soft cheeks and started pulling to stop her weird and ridiculous way of atonement.
Anyway, when both sides finally calmed down a little, I spoke up first.
āHowever, if you know that youāll regret it like this, why are you confessing to himā¦ā
Chiaki-san scratched her cheeks after hearing my question.
āAhaha, ā¦I-I wonder why. ā¦W-Weird? If I remembered correctly, ā¦uwahh, come to think of it, I didnāt wish for anything during that confession! Even if Keita accepted it, the consequence would be cruel! Itās super scary! What was I doing!ā
āYou only realized it now? If thatās the case, why are youā¦ā
Iām absolutely dumbfounded. Chiaki answered with an embarrassed smile.
āAhaha, ā¦but, at that time, I didnāt think of anything after the confession. ā¦Jeez, Iām such an idiot.ā
āā¦Ahā¦ā
Suddenly, I remembered Konoha-sanās definition of love.
<I think love doesnāt just surpass rationality. Itās a wave of stupidity and enthusiasm that easily overwhelm even desires.>
That sentence was repeated in my brain several times.
I fell silent. Chiaki-san continued.
āAnyway, Karen-san, Iāve always wanted to tell you this and apologize to you. ā¦Actually, Keita and I were thinking of the same thing.ā
āā¦Ah, thatās why you twoā¦ā
I finally understood everything. The two are indeed not trying to tell me that theyāre dating. Itās just like what Uehara-kun had said, Iām just freaking myself out. Howeverā¦
(Why canāt Iā¦feel sincerely happy even though the misunderstanding is cleared upā¦)
Thereās absolutely nothing between these two. Moreover, theyāre extremely sincere to me. Even so, ā¦what is this kind of insecurity and worry thatās still lingering in my heart right now?
Chiaki-san continued nervously.
āWell, Keita is really loyal to you. Thatās why he wanted to explain the confession to you! So! Well, itās okay for you to despise or hate me, but please donāt blame himā¦ā
Chiaki-san begged me worriedly. I replied with a smile.
āItās okay, Chiaki-san. Who will hate you just because of that? Not to mention Amano-kunā¦ā
āBut could you deal with the emotions that are ravaging in your heart right now as soon as possible?ā
āI-Iām sorryā¦ā
Chiaki-san sank her mouth into the water embarrassingly. Sheās adorable, and I canāt help but smile at her.
āHowever, ā¦if you promised Amano-kun that youāre explaining this together, why are you confessing to me alone?ā
Just as Iām asking her with a thoroughly unbelievable expression, Chiaki-san slowly stood up from the bath and faced me with a warm smile.
āItās rare for us to go on a school trip like this. Thereās no way for me to just leave a barrier between Keita and you. Instead of that, ā¦instead of letting Keita suffer, Iā¦I can break all the promises I made with Keita.ā
She explained to me with a determined look. What a charming girl. As for me, ā¦I finally realized it.
(Ah, thisā¦this is the realā¦what Konoha-san has talked aboutā¦)
If thisā¦if thisā¦is really how a considerate person should be-
Then, ā¦I, ā¦the only thing I can do for Amano-kun isā¦
āā¦Phew. By the way, the onsen is super nice and warm, ā¦Karen-san.ā
I started pondering. Chiaki-san, who sank her shoulders completely into the bath, spoke up with an intoxicated look.
I sank my shoulders into the hot water with her too.
Then, I slowly closed my eyes and expressed my feelings sincerely.
āHiya, I didnāt expect them to just throw me awayā¦ā
The rural student, who canāt even figure out his directions, is standing in the Tokyo station alone.
ā¦Hello, as you can see here, this is me on the 3rd day.
The man that was finally āabandonedā by his groupmates, Keita Amano.
I was impressed that I stood here for so long, ā¦am I really an idiot?
I leaned on the pillar before the ticket gate as I deeply sighed.
āI feel like Iām advancing towards the devilās abyss steadilyā¦ā
If things are progressing this way, I donāt even know what will happen on the 4th day of the trip. ā¦It terrifies me by merely thinking about it.
āSigh, whatever.ā
I mumbled and cheered myself up as I switched my mindset.
In reality, Iām not that upset from being āabandonedā by my groupmates. Iāve always been a loner, so I donāt find the idea of doing stuff on my own repulsive. The worst part is while being with everyone, they still tried to pull some āpetty actionsā on me. From this perspective, now that Iām entirely alone, I feel this is way better and more relaxing.
āEven so, thereās nothing for a loner to do in Tokyo.ā
I tried to search āTokyo,ā āSightseeingā online, but the results didnāt impress me at all. This whole day is supposed for group activities. We planned to go to the Tokyo Tower, Ueno, and Asakusa. But, ā¦now that things went this way, honestly, I donāt like following them anymore. I should enjoy myself if I was left alone.
After a while, I decided to message the members of the Game Hobby Club.
<Me: Iām now alone.>
During this time, of course, Aguri-san is the first one to give me a response.
<Aguri: Comedy.>
āWhat comedy.ā
Whatās wrong with this gal? Sheās pissing me off. Is she a devil that treats my misfortunate as snacks? Just as Iām feeling angry, Uehara-kun messaged me next.
<Tasuku Uehara: Kaburagi sucks. Heās clearly afraid of you. However, itās better this way, right? You go out and have some fun today.>
Seriously, why would a saint like this date a devil? This world is ridiculous. ā¦Well, perhaps the disparate couple should remain silent.
Just as Iām thinking about all that, Chiaki sent me a confusing message.
<Chiaki Hoshinomori: Youāre at Tokyo Station now? Please wait, Iāll help you get this done!>
āGet this done?ā
What is she talking about? Is Chiaki bringing her group to me? While Iām happy to know that Tendou-san will be here, ā¦but I donāt know the other members of the group.
I endured this overwhelmingly restless feeling and waited for 3 minutes. Suddenly, my phone is vibrating. I remained cautious since I thought something went wrong, but it looks like itās just a phone call. ā¦My loner history was too long. Itās rare for me to receive a call like thisā¦
āUh, strange, Tendou-san?ā
I looked at the screen, and Tendou-san is calling me. While Iām still confused, Tendou-sanās energetic voice immediately went over the phone.
āAmano-kun, letās have a date in Tokyo. Weāre touring Tokyo together!ā
āEh?ā
Iām undoubtedly moved by her suggestion.
Of course, I didnāt bother to ask for details and accepted her invitation right away.
The result is-
*
āWeāre here, Akihabara!ā
āI figured it would be like thisā¦ā
This is a bit of a rip-off of my imagination of a āTokyo tour.ā Anyway, Tendou-san and I came to a place like this.
Tendou-san protested me, whoās feeling a bit disappointed, with her sparkling eyes.
āAmano-kun, whatās wrong with you! This is Akihabara, Akihabara! Isnāt this a holy land for gamers!ā
āWell, I guess itās true if you put it that way. ā¦However, itās not like thereāre games that can only be bought here nowadaysā¦ā
Well, Iām still a part of the otaku tribe, so itās not right to say that Iām somewhat impressed with the name āAkihabara.ā ā¦But if you ask me whether I had a clear goal when I came here, honestly, there isnāt.
However, from Tendou-sanās perspective, this doesnāt seem to be the case. She explained excitedly.
āI feel like there would be a lot of classic games waiting for me here, Amano-kun!ā
āUh, Iām not an old-school player. Moreover, the latest releases already ate all of my timeā¦ā
āThereās a lot of souvenirs that you canāt see at home too!ā
āThen Iām more or less interested, ā¦but I still love the game itself moreā¦ā
āAh, Amano-kun, look! Thatās the flagship store of Gamers, the flagship store of Gamers! It feels really familiar!ā
Tendou-san suddenly gasped and paused. Although itās good that she finally calmed down, she plopped her head down and shivered with a heavy blush. Iām quite bothered by this, but I donāt understand why. Whatās wrong with her?
Thereās nothing I can do. So, I looked at the streets of Akihabara from the station and said thank you to Tendou-san again.
āBy the way, thank you, Tendou-san. You cam all the way here to hang out with a loner like meā¦ā
āAh, itās nothing.ā She finally snapped out of it and answered.
āIām the one that asked you to come to Akihabara with me.ā
āBut Tendou-san, are you sure that you donāt want to stick with your groupā¦ā
āYeah, itās fine. We werenāt going to the same place, anyway. Also, we already agreed that weāre separating today.ā
āReally.ā
I pressed my chest in relief and started touring the district with Tendou-san again.
I didnāt know that Iāll get this feeling from walking alone, ā¦the streets of Akihabara really tune you up. The whole road is filled with games and manga, something that Iāll never see back home. Even though weāre doing nothing, Iām happy by just being in this place. This is the most āsightseeingā thing Iāve done so far.
To enjoy this atmosphere, Tendou-san and I toured and appreciated the streets for a while.
Then, we stumbled upon a game store and realized thereās a discount area. Both of our eyes are sparkling as we tried finding what we like. ā¦Itās time for me to admit this. No matter how you put it, Iām the type that doesnāt care romance when games appeared in front of my eyes.
During this time, Tendou-san grabbed a Nintendo game as she mumbled.
āā¦Actually, Chiaki-san put a lot of effort so that we can be alone today.ā
āChiaki?ā
I read the text behind the Dreamcast game cover and questioned her. Tendou-san nodded as she continued
āYes. Thanks to Chiaki-san trying her best and persuade all the groupmates to disband as soon as possible, thatās why I can come hereā¦ā
āOh, ā¦really.ā
I put the game back onto the shelve as I sincerely appreciated Chiaki. ā¦Jeez, that seaweed is reallyā¦
During this time, Tendou-san stared at my face for some reason. I stepped back and asked her with a blush.
āI-Is there anything wrong?ā
āNo, itās nothing. ā¦Amano-kun, itās time for us to leave, right.ā
āAh, yes, sure.ā
We left the store when Tendou-san urged me. Although we tried finding our games, we ended up buying nothing. While weāre kind of sorry to the store because of the window shopping, weāre already satisfied when thereās a bunch of rare games.
Itās been an hour since we left the store and walked around the streets of Akihabara. Itās time for us to switch places, right? Just as I started to think about that, Tendou-san seems unable to suppress her excitement and suggested to me.
āAmano-kun, Amano-kun! Letās visit the arcade too!ā
āAlrightā¦ā
Going to an arcade on the school trip, it sounds like what a shallow delinquent would do. So, a typical obedient student like me would find this idea a bit uncomfortable. However, if my cute girlfriendās staring at me with her watery eyes, it canāt be helped. Goodbye, the once obedient student.
I wanted to compromise and said, āWeāre just going to stay for a whileā¦ā Then, we entered the large arcade in the middle of the path that heads toward the station. ā¦Entering an arcade in the middle of the day with uniforms on, I hope I donāt get a detention.
āEh, weird? Thereās a lot of people in this arcade, right?ā
āReally?ā
My girlfriend doesnāt seem to be mind as she walked further inside. I followed her and observed the situation around. There are more people the further I go. Just as Iām starting to feel that this is indeed unusual, I saw the poster on the wall.
āAh, indeed. Tendou-san, look, a few famous cosplayers came here to advertise a new game. ā¦Eh, hey? Tendou-san?ā
Once I snapped out of it, Tendou-san disappeared. It looks like she went further in. This girl is still just as attracted to gaming. ā¦Well, even though I shouldnāt say anything.
Although I shrugged helplessly, I headed forward to try and find my rampaging girlfriend-
āEh? Ah, uh, wait, itās not like that. Youāre wrong. Iām notā¦ā
ā?ā
-I realized something was wrong just as Iām about to move. It seems that Tendou-sanās in trouble, and the people began to cheer.
I got a bad feeling. So, although I feel terrible for the crowd, I forced my way forward. So, when I finally reached the end, I saw-
-The Karen Tendou Photoshoot thatās even more popular than the cosplayers.
Tendou-san freaked out and waved her hands.
āI-I told you itās not like that. Uh, Iām not participating in the activity!ā
ā¦Crap, I didnāt know Tendou-sanās being startled was this adorable. Also, Iām not just the only one thinking that. The entire coward is overwhelmed by her charm.
(ā¦Ah, I guess it canāt be helped. After all, thereās an unrealistic and adorable blonde girl wearing a high school uniformā¦)
Everyone will misunderstand if she appeared in a cosplayerās scene. Itās not right to blame those photographers.
Even so, I still canāt stand Tendou-san being caught up in trouble.
Now that I can see everything, a guy is trying to get a low-angle shot-
āKaren!ā
-I immediately yelled out and forced my way to her. Then, I grabbed Tendou-sanās hand and pulled her to me.
āWhat are you doing, jeez! Hey, weāre going!ā
āEh? A-Amano-kunā¦ā
āUh, sorry for interrupting everyone. Sheās just a passerby. Iām sorry about the misunderstanding caused. Well, weāll be leaving!ā
I apologized as I dragged Tendou-sanās hand out of the scene.
So, we left the arcade like this and walked for around 50 meters.
āA-Amano-kun, well, ā¦wellā¦ā
āWHAT!ā
She spoke timidly to me, and I angrily answered since Iām still not over it.
During this time, although Tendou-san is acting embarrassed, ā¦she still mumbled to me.
āUh, ā¦if weāre in front of that many people, it seems a bit embarrassingā¦ā
āEh?ā
I donāt understand what she means, so I looked back. Thenā¦
āAhā¦ā
Somehow, ā¦I didnāt even notice that Iām holding Tendou-sanās hand tightly. Weāre walking blatantly on the street with our hands together like a couple.
My face immediately flared up, and steamās coming out. Then, I quickly let go of her hand and apologized.
āS-Sorry, Tendou-san! Ah, uwah, how could I do something so arrogantā¦ā
āAh, no, thatās not true. I donāt hate it, uhā¦ā
We plopped our heads down while still blushing. I understand that everyone around is giving us a āwhat the hell are you two doingā look, but forget that.
I scratched the back of my brain as I apologized to Tendou-san.
āIām really sorry. ā¦When I saw that youāre in trouble, Iā¦Iā¦ā
I deeply reflected on myself and expressed my sincere thought to Tendou-san.
āI just forget everything and acted recklessly.ā
āEh?ā
āEh?ā
I replied to her confusing reaction with a question mark on my head. For some reason, ā¦tears formed on Tendou-sanās eyes. ā¦At the same time, sheās staring at me with a very gentle look.
āReally, ā¦youāre just the same.ā
āH-Hmm?ā
W-What does this mean? Anyway, I donāt think sheās angryā¦
Just as Iām freaking out, Tendou-san took a deep breath.
Then, she continued with a face full of determination.
āWell, ā¦I need to return your sincere feelings too.ā
āO-Okayā¦ā
C-Crap, I donāt know where this is going. Even though I donāt understand, I can hear that this is something very important. So, Iām startled.
My body turned stiff. Then, Tendou-san, ā¦my girlfriend grabbed my hand and just directly lead me forward as she spoke up cheerfully.
āAmano-kun! Weāre going to have as much fun as we can on our date! Alright!ā
āEh?ā
ā¦Iām not sure of the details. However, ā¦thereās nothing more important than us having fun.
āā¦Yeah! Of course! Letās enjoy today, Tendou-san!ā
I answered her energetically.
Come to think of it, this was the happiest day of the school trip for her and me.
Aguri
The morning of the 4th day that signaled the end of the school trip.
I woke up earlier than my groupmates. Then, I occupied the washstand and tried my best to tidy up my looks.
After all, today, ā¦is the day where we can do whatever we want in Disneyland. This is the main show for me.
In reality, until today, I can sum up my experience on the school trip in one sentence ā āItās not fun.ā Thereās nothing for me to say aside from that.
Of course, itās quite fun to tour around with my classmates.
We toured, ate, stayed up all night, and played together.
However, Tasuku wasnāt there, ā¦the person that I loved the most isnāt there. Once I realized that, all of my happiness faded away.
It will be tastier if Iām with Tasuku. It will be happier if Iām with Tasuku.
This thought kept appearing in my mind, no matter what. Although I feel terrible for my groupmates, I canāt help but think it that way.
People often say that itās easy to be lovesick. Indeed, this kind of emotion that permeates my body and my mind thatās harmful to daily lives is a kind of sickness. Thereās only one way to suppress the symptoms: seeing Tasuku directly and absorb his everything.
ā¦Ah, no, aside from that, thereās one way for me to vent this out right now.
I quickly clicked on my smartphone at the side of the washstand and messaged my comrade in arms.
<Me: Amanocchi, did you shave your nose hair today?>
So, he seems to be awake as well and immediately responded.
<Keita Amano: Why are you saying that like my nose hair always sticks out? Please donāt do that.>
<Me: Ah, sorry. ā¦You do mind it, ā¦right?>
<Keita Amano: Eh, really? Is my nose hair out when I first met you in spring?>
<Me: Itās okay. Itās only 2 meters long.>
<Keita Amano: Itās literally on the floor, right! Thatās a narrative trick in novels. What kind of shocking reveal is this! I didnāt know that Iāve always lived with my nose hair in high school!>
<Me: Uh, Amanocchi, Iām still tidying up. Itās time for us to stop talking about nose hair, right?>
<Keita Amano: Like Iām the one that started this! Bye!>
Amanocchi sent a sticker with an angry face and left.
I canāt help but chuckle after seeing that, and then I looked at the mirror again.
āAlright, ā¦Iāll be giving my everything today!ā
Perhaps Iām way too excited to see Tasuku. Right now, I can see that Iām full of energy in the mirror.
āHey, Amanocchi. Iām here.ā
I arrived at the plaza immediately after entering the Disneyland entrance. Then, I realized the small guy thatās getting pushed around in the crowd, so I waved and yelled at him.
So, he- Amanocchi, noticed me and cheered up right away as he dashed here.
āAh, Aguri-san, good morning!ā
Even though I just pranked Amanocchi this morning, heās still running towards me with a face full of smile. Heās slightly out of breath.
I canāt help but laugh and pat his head.
āAhhh, Amanocchi, youāre really a loyal dog.ā
āEh? Ah, does my hair looks like I just woke up?ā
Amanocchi seems to have misunderstood something, so he tried his best to tidy up his bangs. ā¦Jeez.
I casually scratched his head and walked forward.
āLetās go. Weāre buying the Loverbears before everyone, Amanocchi.ā
āEh, what the hell are you doing, damn!ā
I guess Amanocchi spent a long time on his hair in the morning. ā¦His hair is way too tidy, and itās not adorable at all. Heās furious since I basically trashed it.
As for me, I casually started whistling and walked into the store, not paying attention to the guy behind.
Amanocchi started fiddling his head with tears in his eyes. Then, he let out a sigh in relief after taking a look at the store.
āAh, no one is lining up at the cashier. Thatās great.ā
āYep, itās not rare but expensive, after all. However, thatās whyā¦ā
āYes. I feel like itās very suited for Tendou-san as a present!ā
The innocent boy immediately grabbed his wallet from the bag tightly with sparkling eyes. I casually snatched the wallet from his head. Amanocchi almost cried out immediately and reacted as if the world is ending.
āG-Give me back my wallet, Jyaian!ā [Note: Jyaian is the bully from Doraemon.]
āWhoās Jyaian? Take it. You should keep it safe if youāre holding it.ā
After I returned it, Amanocchi carefully defended his wallet and stared at me like heās throwing a tantrum.
āIn this dreamy kingdom, only a barbaric gal will have an evil idea like thatā¦ā
āā¦Hey.ā
āUwah! What the, Iām holding it really tightly just then! What kind of thief skill is that!ā
āAlright, Amanocchi. Letās see how much you got in your walletā¦ā
āS-Stop it, Jyaian!ā
Amano begged me with tears in his eyes. ā¦.Oh.
(What is this? I really want to bully Amanocchi whenever I see him. At the same time, I really wish that heās going to be blessed.)
To me, Amanocchi is an unbelievable person. Although in terms of the opposite gender, heās just a pawn compared to Tasuku. However, I donāt think weāre just regular friends.
āā¦Hmm, servant? Slave? Pet? ā¦Ah, perhaps itās an animal you would play withā¦ā
āUwah, Jyaian is mumbling something super scary!ā
I played with Amanocchiās wallet as I pondered.
Regrettably, I donāt have any siblings. But if I have a little brother, I guess the result will be similar. Sigh, strictly speaking, it's not accurate since I donāt have one.
I thought about this as I walked further into the store. Finally, we arrived at the limited Loverbears area. The high-class Loverbears are paired up and separated into different colors.
I gave Amanocchi his wallet back as we started looking for the bears we want.
āHmm, ā¦blue and pink, ā¦does it look like Tasuku and meā¦ā
āNo, you can only choose black and white. Itās because itās the blackhearted devil and her saint boyfriend-ā
I elbowed Amanocchiās stomach a bit forcefully. He continued agonizingly. āWho allowed this person into Dreamland. ā¦Why isnāt the magical barrier workingā¦ā Heās moaning like a disgusting otaku. Then, he barely got a hold of himself and started picking his bears.
āIf itās for Tendou-san and me, I guess I should choose yellow that can match her blonde hair and the classic male blue colorā¦ā
āEh, letās cut it in half. You only need to get the yellow one, right?ā
āThereās a demon. A real demon has invaded Dreamland!ā
Amanocchi started shivering. ā¦Crap, Iām enjoying this a lot.
Anyway, I messed with Amanocchi as we rated the bears.
So, at last, I bought the pink and green Loverbears. Amanocchi got the yellow and blue one.
The Loverbears had their price tag removed before being put into the bag. Although thereās an adorable packaging, Loverbears should be directly given to our partners. So, Amanocchi and I refused.
Comparatively, we left the store carefully with the bags in our hands.
Then, Amanocchi asked me this when weāre heading towards the plaza where everyone in the Game Hobby Club will meet.
āAguri-san, why are you giving the green Loverbear to Uehara-kun? Itās okay to not choose a blue one?ā
āItās fine. Amanocchi, you chose blue to represent yourself, after all.ā
āYes. This is a classic color. Moreover, you would associate the name Amano to blue, right.ā
āYep. Well, if you picked blue, doesnāt blue sound disgusting to me now?ā
āThis girl suddenly stabbed me with a knife.ā
Amanocchi dropped his shoulders deflatedly. I laughed and continued.
āAy, actually, itās not good for both sides to receive the same colors. Moreover, instead of the common blue, ā¦I think Tasukuās impression needs a manlier color. Hoho.ā
āAlright, thanks for that. Instead of picking the passerby blue like me, Uehara-kun is really more suited to a green color that reminds people of nature.ā
āExactly.ā
I took out the Loverbears from my bag. Looking at the pink and green bear sticking together lovingly, it made me smile as well. The bell on the neck of the bears is ringing adorably.
Amanocchi took out his Loverbears like me. The yellow and blue bears are clinging to each other blissfully too.
We canāt help but stop. Then, we looked at each other Loverbearsā and was immersed in this sense of throbbing.
Since the local customers have terrible attitudes, the cashier job at the supermarket is more challenging than Iāve imagined. Especially for Amanocchi, heās so stressed that he ended up losing weight every time his shift was over.
Amanocchi is different from me, whoās good at slacking off and were just trying to earn some cash. Heāll provide more-than-necessary assistance when a customer requested it. Also, if someone complained, no matter how unreasonable it is, heāll feel sincerely depressed. A boy with an attitude like him will have a harsh life.
Even so, if Amanocchi had a small chance to āprove his love to Tendou-san,ā he remained determined and continued working. ā¦So, finally, he got the Loverbears that he wished for today.
Come to think of it, although I really treasure my own pair of Loverbears too, Iām still unreasonably touched when I saw Amanocchi got his.
Also, it looks like Iām not the only one that thinks this way. Amanocchi is looking at my Loverbears throbbingly as well as he spoke up embarrassingly.
āUh, well, Aguri-san, thanks for everything.ā
āAhaha, what was that? Are you going to die?ā
Amanocchiās acting like heās about to face the final boss in a game. I canāt hold my laughter. However, in reality, I can understand how he feels right now.
ā¦The meeting place isnāt far ahead.
Finally, I want to my last cheers to Amanocchi, ā¦my comrade in arms. So, I carefully grabbed my pink Loverbear.
After that, I put the teddy in front of me as if Iām a ventriloquist. I waved itsā hands as I pretended to speak.
āWell, well! See you in battle, Private Amano!ā
āEh, I didnāt know Loverbear is a character like that?ā
Amano gave my act a bitter smile, but he grabbed his blue Loverbear as well. Then, he put it in front of his face and cheered me too.
āThanks, Sergeant Aguri. I hope you do well in the fight!ā
āOkay!ā
Then, we showed our faces from the teddy and chuckled at each other.
Thereās a sense of warmth and courage flooding in my chest right now. I hope Amanocchi is the same.
We put our Loverbears back into the bags carefully to prevent our partners from noticing that thereās a present.
Then-
āLetās go, Amanocchi.ā
āAlright, Aguri-san.ā
-The two of us finally took a step towards the final stage.
Tasuku Uehara
Letās start with the conclusion. We had so much fun at Disneyland today.
Since everyone in the Game Hobby Club agreed to stick together, the couples didnāt get to enjoy flirting with each other.
However, itās impossible for us to not feel happy when we can tour around the theme park with our best friends.
Especially the fact that this is different than the double date in the Viva Spiel Kingdom, we didnāt spend a lot of effort on weird ideas and tricks. Thanks to that, we can genuinely enjoy ourselves in the rides.
When we were on the rollercoaster, Tendou calmly said that āitās literally just for freaking kids out,ā and yet her legs are trembling. We all gave her a bitter smile.
When weāre in double-seat rides, Amano and I always ended up together since we randomly decided the seats, which made us all laugh.
When weāre in rides that give you a leisure world settings, itās really warm for us to Amano and Hoshinomori are so touched that theyāre acting like innocent children.
So, the evening hits in a flash, here comes the long-awaited duel between Amano and Hoshinomoriā¦
Well, about this activity, Amano and Hoshinomori scored equally ā ranking last among the Game Hobby Club. Itās a terrible outcome.
Those two didnāt just lose to Tendou and me. Theyāre even falling way behind of Aguri, whoās not a gamer at all. Speaking of how depressed they were, they donāt even care who won the duel anymore. Their disheartened look always made us laugh our butts off.
Also, although thereās not a chance for the couples to be alone, I think we should thank an arrangement like this. The time when I had fun together with Aguri is just like the past. No, we were way more intimate. Aside from that, Iāll acknowledge this once again for every chance.
Indeed, Aguriās smile is always my favorite.
I bet itās just the same for Amano and Tendou.
You can only understand how important and blessed your partner is in a group, instead of the two being alone. This was a throbbing day.
Even so, none of us flirted with each other today. So, at least we didnāt distance ourselves from Hoshinomori, ā¦but itās hard to say. Anyway, from my perspective, Hoshinomori enjoyed this day thoroughly.
No, itās not just that, when compared to the past, Hoshinomori is opening her heart to Amano and Tendou even more. I didnāt expect this. They can give off a ābest friendā mood even when theyāre just arguing.
Perhaps itās just my imagination, but I secretly asked Aguri how does she feel about them. She has the exact same idea as I do. However, in the end, Aguri and I didnāt understand the reason at all. Itās more like, I didnāt know how Tendou stopped suspecting whether the two are dating or not. Sigh, ā¦no matter what, everythingās okay as long as theyāre happy. So, Aguri and I decided to not ask for details, especially not in front of Tendou.
So, we had our fun in Disneyland today.
Then, the sun is setting, and we need to find a good spot to watch the parade.
The couples are finally separating from each other.
Howeverā¦
āHoshinomori, are you sure you want to be alone?ā
I canāt help but say this to Hoshinomori.
The leisurely atmosphere suddenly got a bit tenser. Thereāre a lot of couples walking around happily in the dark theme park.
Although we decided this in prior, this situation still made us feel guilty to Hoshinomori.
Just as everyone is having a āwhy donāt we just go togetherā mood, Hoshinomori quickly rejected such an indecisive suggestion.
āNo, itās too much for me to watch the parade among two pairs of couples. That already counts as bullying to me.ā
Perhaps sheās right. Even so, weāre still hesitating. So, Hoshinomori turned around and looked back at us with a smile.
āWell! Since Iām not interested in the parade, Iām going to use this opportunity and play the now-empty rides that were full at day! Bye!ā
Hoshinomori immediately ran off like she doesnāt tolerate any other options. ā¦Honestly, Iām afraid sheās just forcing herself. However, sheās already doing so much for us. Itās not wise for us to keep her here, right.
We decided to accept her courtesy genuinely.
ā¦Ay, in reality, ā¦thereās something I want to say to Aguri alone. I guess Tendouās the same.
āWell, itās time for us toā¦ā
I urged them. Then, Amano and Tendou nodded in agreement.
āOkay. Well, see you later, Uehara-kun.ā
āWeāll be leaving, Uehara-kun, Aguri-san.ā
The two didnāt forget to bid farewell. Aguri smiled and waved at them.
āEnjoy yourselves.ā
Aguriās lighthearted cheers made Tendou answer with a smile. āYeah, the same goes for you.ā
So, just as theyāre leaving, ā¦Amano smiled slightly at Aguri. Aguri replied with the same smile. ā¦Itās nothing big; thatās all of the interaction. Itās far less shocking than the attempted kissing scene before.
However, no, thatās why.
(ā¦I guess soā¦)
I can feel that a certain thorn in my heart disappeared utterly.
I spoke to Aguri after we saw Amano and Tendou leaving.
āWell, letās go find a seat.ā
āOkay, ā¦maybe weāll bump into Amanocchi.ā
āThat would be awkward, ā¦well, even though I think itās quite likely.ā
āYeah.ā
We chatted with each other while strolling around the park. The gloomy main streets are already covered with a lot of picnic mats. All of the families and couples are looking forward to the parade.
Aguri stared at them gently and mumbled.
āI feel likeā¦this is really great. Itās different than the energetic and cheerful happiness we experienced in the morning. I guessā¦itās a soothing sense of happiness.ā
Aguri slightly blushed as she crossed her arms in front of her chest and mumbled.
āā¦Ha, what was that. T-This isnāt like you at allā¦ā
I canāt help but laugh out at my gal girlfriendās emotional speech. Aguri pouted and protested.
āW-Whatās wrong! Sometimes Iāll feel like that tooā¦ā
āReallyā¦ā
āYesā¦ā
Ay, how long since Iāve flirted with my girlfriend innocently.
We joked around as we slowly toured the park. Honestly, ā¦I donāt care about the parade anymore. Right now, at this moment, I feel incredibly blessedā¦by just taking a walk with her leisurely.
However, Aguri seems to be looking forward to the parade. Since we still canāt find a good place, she mumbled a bit angrily.
āUgh, ā¦it looks like weāre totally lateā¦ā
āYouāre right. ā¦If thatās the case, why donāt we just go further away. Instead of squeezing ourselves in the crowd, itās better to just watch from afar relaxedly, right.ā
āā¦Sigh, youāre right, Tasuku. Itās enough for me as long as I can see your face.ā
āPlease donāt say that so calmly. ā¦I donāt know how to react.ā
My face is flaring up. Aguri has always presented her love to me casually. However, if you compared the times that I donāt really care and right now, my ādamage taken from embarrassmentā is two digits more.
āR-Really, ā¦uhā¦ā
I guess Aguri didnāt expect me to react in this way too, so she scratched her face embarrassingly and fell silent.
We continued walking without saying much else. ā¦Actually, I donāt really mind whether we can find a seat or not anymore. In the end, when we snapped out of it, we arrived at the unpopular ride that was empty since noon.
During this time, we can hear cheers from the crowd somewhere. It looks like the parade is starting. We observed the situation dazedly and just stood there, the lights are sparkling from afar.
āUwah, we canāt even see the parade from here.ā
āYeah.ā
Aguri and I talked to each other, yet weāre not regretting it at all. ā¦The two of us just stood together. Weāre already happy with just that.
So, we remained silent for a while. Then, Aguri spoke up. āAh, right.ā She turned around and started searching for something in her bag. ā¦Is she taking a picnic mat out?
āYes, yes, there wouldnāt be a better chance than this. ā¦Iām sure Amanocchi right now is alsoā¦ā
āā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦ā
Aguri seems to be excited, and Iām blessed as well.
However, thatās whyā¦
I looked at her quietly. Aguri took the thing sheās looking for, ā¦but she immediately hid it behind her to prevent me from seeing it. Then, she gave me a childish smile.
āHehe, Tasukuā¦Tasuku! Thereās something I want to say to you.ā
That smileā¦made my heart is tightening up to the point where I feel pain. However, I managed to answer.
āā¦Really. I want to tell you something, too, Aguri.ā
āEh, really? What is it, what is it? Uh, well, well, ā¦you can go ahead first!ā
Aguri urged me with a bright smile.
Looking at her, ⦠I can feel that my love for this girl is about to overwhelm my heart.
āAguri.ā
āHiya?ā
I took a step closer to her. Our bodies can almost touch each other. Even though weāre a couple, ⦠weāve never been so close before.
āTasuku, you-ā
Aguri is confused. However, I want to calm her down, so I bowed down and-
āAhā¦ā
I kissed her forehead.
Karen Tendou
āWe ended up somewhere far away from the parade.ā
āYeah.ā
We kept walking towards a less crowded area, and then we ended up in a deserted place. Also, I think the rides around here seem to be closed way earlier than the actual closing time of the park. We canāt even see any tourist or staff members here, not to mention the people who want to see the parade.
āā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦ā
Itās hard to believe that the famous Disneyland will be this gloomy and quiet when itās still open. We looked at each other. ā¦Then, we canāt help but laugh.
āThis is really like us in a sense, Amano-kun.ā
āYeah. No one can beat me when it comes to finding a lonely place.ā
āWhy are you proud of that.ā
Amano-kun and I chuckled at each other. ā¦We donāt really care how far the parade is anymore. We just felt thatā¦weāre really happy right now.
We looked at the lights of the parade from afar as we passed this relaxed moment.
During this time, Amano-kun suddenly mumbled. āRight, right, I almost forgot.ā Then, he moved his bag to the front and started searching for something.
āā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦ā
ā?ā
Amano-kun glanced at me. Then, for some reason, he hid his bag behind his body to prevent me from seeing it. Although I donāt understand what heās trying to do, ā¦Iām not going to peek at something that he doesnāt want me to see. So, I looked away.
After a couple seconds, he spoke up. āSorry for the wait.ā I looked at Amano-kun again, and then I realizedā¦he seems to be holding something in his hand with a smile.
āUh, Tendou-san, thereās something important I want to tell youā¦ā
Amano-kun told me this embarrassingly.
Even though his faceā¦made me feel a tinge of pain in my heart.
I still managed to answer with a smile.
āMe too, Amano-kun. Thereā¦thereās something important I want to tell you too.ā
āEh, really? W-What is it? Uh, well, ā¦y-you go first.ā
Amano-kun urged me anxiously. ā¦Although I donāt know what he is hiding, he really wants to finish this as fast as possible. The evidence is that Amano-kunās eyes and legs canāt calm down at all. I guess he doesnāt want me to interrupt him in times like this.
However, ā¦heās still willing toā¦prioritze me first.
(Amano-kun is always so warm and gentle to meā¦)
Even though Iāve been terrible for avoiding Hoshinomori and him recently. Even though I canāt do anything right and was a total coward when weāre together.
Even so, he has always put me and my feelings at no.1.
I think thatās definitely not because heās weak. He must be considerate to me from the bottom of his heart. Sincere and honest. His feelings must beā¦way tenser than I couldāve ever imagined.
āHmm? Tendou-san?ā
Amano-kun glanced at me worriedly. Right now, I understand. Everything he did or said to meā¦has always been the truth. He never lied to me. Heās always willing to face me directly. However, the reason that our relationship is so tangled upā¦is because a weakling like me never trusted him.
āAmano-kunā¦ā
I stepped closer towards Amano-kun. Our bodies can almost touch each other. The distance thatā¦weāve never experienced before.
āEh, heyā¦ā
Amano-kun is confused. Iām just looking at his face dizzily.
Finally, ā¦Iā¦said something to him, ā¦no, I said something to someoneā¦
āSorry, Amano-kun. ā¦Even so, this is the only thing that I donāt want to give away.ā
When I apologized.
āEh, what are you-ā
āLet us- take our love further.ā
I moved towards Amano-kunās confused face.
ā!ā
Heās shocked. Then, I put my lips against his.
Chiaki Hoshinomori
āEh-ā
In front of my eyes, -I can see Tendou-san and Keita kissing each other.
āā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦ā
Iām justā¦staring at the scene dazedly from afar.
āā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦ā
My mind is messed up, and I canāt think of anything.
I escaped to somewhere desolate to just avoid those two pairs of couples. Why are the two of them here?
Why would they do something so important at this moment?
Why would a girl like me stumble on a scene like this?
Also, whyā¦whyā¦
āā¦W-Whyā¦amā¦Iā¦ā
Even though Keita and I are already āfriendsā only.
Even so-
Why wouldā¦tears keep coming out of my eyes?
āā¦Ughā¦ā
I turned around to prevent myself from seeing them kissing again.
Is it because Iām upset? Is it because Iām guilty? Or-
Perhaps, is it because the precious feeling thatās still nurturing in my heart is actually unwilling to- obliterate that small beacon of hope?
I started running away to leave the two alone.
āā¦Keitaā¦Keitaā¦!ā
I kept calling his name for some reason as I ran across the Dreamland thatās filled with hope. All I want to do now is to go to a place thatās as dark as possible.
Amano & Aguri
āā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦ā
Right now, what did my lover do to me?
I canāt understand immediately and was utterly stunned for the moment.
However, ā¦a couple seconds later, the reality that came with the fact finally arrived.
Happiness, warmth, courage- All of these emotions are exploding in my heart.
(Iām excited, happy, embarrassed, but Iām really happy, really happy, really happy! So, I have to express my feelings right nowā¦! After all, nowā¦nowās the best time-!)
My face is as red as a tomato, and my heart is pumping faster and faster.
The two teddy bears, Loverbears, is in my hand right now. My hands are sweaty.
Right now, this is the only moment.
I love him, I love her. I love. I love. I love! So, please relax!
Nowās the time to express my feelings to him, to herā¦!
āW-Well! I-I-I-I-I-I-I want to give you something tooā¦!ā
The emotions are flooding. Iām stuttering. However, what a blissful excitement that was.
My lover is staring at me with an unprecedently gentle look.
That just made me feel happy. Also, thatās why I want to return my overwhelming emotions to my lover. I want to reveal the present as proof.
I just want to make the person that I love the most to be happy from the bottom of my heart. I donāt want my partner to worry about me.
So, I feel like nowās the time. ā At the moment that Iām about to give the Loverbears to my lover.
āAmano-kun.ā āAguri.ā
My lover suddenly called my name.
āEh? Ah, what is it?ā
Although my face is as red as a tomato, I still snapped out of it and raised my head. I looked at my lover with eyes filled with excitement and hope.
So, he, and she still facing me with the most gentleā¦and loving expression Iāve ever seen.
āWe-ā āLetās-ā
To me-
He, and she said that decisive sentence.
-They put that brutal and cruel declaration in front of us.