Yang Lei knew that Fang Yu was looking out for him and wanted him to live a peaceful life in the future. Although Yan Ziyiās company was also considered a serious business, as long as they were on the streets, it was doomed not to be peaceful. Fang Yu was afraid that he would get in trouble again and wanted him to have a good place to go. How could Yang Lei not understand?
But Yang Leiās heart was still chaotic. He didnāt want to hear Fang Yu urging him to leave, even if Fang Yu was doing this for his own good.
āā¦If I go, what happens to us?ā
After a moment of silence, Yang Lei suddenly asked.
Fang Yu didnāt speak, smoking his cigarette.
āIf I go, thatās four years. We wonāt be able to meet many times for four years.ā
āIāll go to see you.ā
After a while, Fang Yu said in a deep voice.
āHow many times can you see me? Can it be compared to us being together every day like this right now?ā
āDonāt just look at the present!ā
Fang Yu was a little impatient.
āWhy donāt the two of us go together? Iāll tell my dad to ask for another spot.ā
āI canāt go. I canāt leave behind Jiu Ge.ā
āāThen can you leave me behind?ā
Yang Lei couldnāt help but blurt out.
āā¦Is this the same thing?ā Fang Yu suddenly raised his eyes, looking at Yang Lei impatiently: āHow old are you? Can you be a little sensible?!ā
Fang Yuās tone was irritableā¦
Yang Lei looked at him and didnāt say anything. That night, he left and went to Turbulent Times.
Yang Lei drank wine, his heart a mess.
The pounding music and drums and the crazily dancing beautiful men and women, all seemed to have nothing to do with him at all. Yang Leiās alcohol tolerance was good. He even once received the nickname āYang Yijin,ā which meant that when Yang Lei drank with other people, he started with at least half a kilogram. But now, Yang Lei just drank a little wine in the bar, not even a drizzle, and he actually felt a little dizzy.
He wanted to find someone to accompany him and talk about the things in his heart. He thought it over and called Ding Wen.
āLei Ge, what is it?ā
After Ding Wen picked up the call, he didnāt say a second word and rushed over. Seeing that Yang Lei was drinking in a bad mood, Ding Wen was very concerned.
āNothing. Drink a little with me.ā Yang Lei poured wine for Ding Wen.
Ding Wen noticed.
āIs itā¦ something happened with you and Fang Yu?ā
Ding Wen guessed that Yang Lei wouldnāt find him for other reasons. He couldnāt tell anyone else about this thing.
On hearing Fang Yuās name, Fang Yuās furrowed, straight eyebrows, bright eyes, and silent and resolute lips appeared before Yang Leiās eyes. This was a face that he always kept in his heart, but now, once he thought about him, it made him upset.
āDing Wen, let me ask youā¦ Can two men last long?ā
Ding Wen was silent for a while.
āItās hard. Even if the feelings are deep, after a long time, they wonāt be able to keep going. They will each have to get married.ā
Ding Wen raised his head and looked at Yang Leiās side profile.
āYou twoā¦ arenāt getting along well?ā
āNo! ā¦Iām just very selfish!ā
Yang Lei suddenly blurted out this sentence!
āā¦Iām really possessedā¦ In the future, Iāll have to destroy him!ā
Yang Lei said incoherently. He didnāt even know what he was talking about.
āā¦Even if later, if heās harmed because of thisā¦ I canāt let him go! ā¦I really could harm him for a lifetime!ā
Yang Lei said painfully and incoherentlyā¦
Ding Wen was confused at first, but he gradually understood.
Yang Lei liked Fang Yu, but he fell in love with a man. Could he not have any pressure at all? Yang Lei had also thought about many practical problems and overcame struggles and conflicts, but in the balance of his heart, Fang Yuās importance outweighed everything else. He recognized Fang Yu and was willing to bear all the pressure for him, but the only thing Yang Lei couldnāt stand was not being able to be with Fang Yu in the future, no matter if it was because of external reasons or problems between the two of them. The being together that he wanted wasnāt what TV dramas spoke of as though it were very romantic, āEven if we are thousands of mountains and streams away, my heart is still with you.ā He couldnāt stand that emptiness. What he wanted was something direct and real. He wanted to be with Fang Yu day and night, to be able to see him and touch him every day, to be able to see him when he opened his eyes, to be able to catch him by reaching out his hand, and kiss him. It was not only being able to emptily think about him in his mind thousands of kilometers away!
People passionately in love were all like this. At least Yang Lei still hadnāt walked out of this period of passionate love. He had only received Fang Yuās response with much difficulty. Yang Lei even thought that, if there was a day when Fang Yu really regretted it and really āfigured it out,ā and realized that he still liked girls and wanted to leave Yang Lei, according to his own temperament, he couldnāt possibly do things for his good as he did before, and give him an opportunity to turn back and let him go ashore. He definitely had to drag Fang Yu to remain underwater with him. Even if being underwater would cause both of them to suffocateā¦ Yang Lei understood himself too well. Unless he changed in the future to the point where he didnāt love Fang Yu, he really would harm Fang Yu for a lifetime. He had to make both of them ābadly behavedā for a lifetimeā¦
Could he no longer love Fang Yu? Could he change in the future?
Yang Lei hadnāt even thought about it. His life was all Fang Yuās! With just one word from Fang Yu, he could give his life to him at any time!
He also didnāt think about the feelings in front of him. He was also making preparations for the future. He was preparing for a future for two people, but Fang Yu needed to be by his side in this future. This was Yang Leiās simplest thought.
Although Ding Wen didnāt know what the matter was, hearing Yang Leiās words, Ding Wen was also silent.
He really didnāt think that Yang Leiās feelings for Fang Yu were this deep. Originally, Ding Wen had experienced so many things, and he had long given up on a so-called everlasting love between two men. But seeing Yang Lei, Ding Wen only silently sighed. He couldnāt get such a person who was willing to commit to these kinds of feelings for him.
āLei Ge, listen to me, donāt sink in too deep. A lifetime is long. No one knows what the future will be like. Donāt hurt yourself.ā
Ding Wenās words were spoken from his heart. He had seen too much. There were too many instances where people would swear to the heavens that they would never separate even if the seas dried up and the rocks decayed, but later, under the pressure of reality, each had their own marriages and went their own ways.
After all, people had to live in reality. Feelings couldnāt be eaten as food.
āSome men can accept this in the beginning, but they actually couldnāt distinguish between brotherhood and love. When they meet a girl they like, then they will understand. I met these kinds of people. Fang Yuā¦ he doesnāt look like someone like us. What about his feelings for you? Does he think the same as you do?ā Ding Wen asked.
Yang Lei threw back his head, drinking the entire glass of brightly colored wine.
āYou donāt understand him!ā
Yang Lei slammed the wineglass on the table.
āā¦Okay. After all, youāve set your mind on him. I wish you two happinessā¦ā
Ding Wen also finished drinking his wineā¦
Later, Ding Wen kept accompanying him. Yang Lei talked about a lot with him, and Ding Wen listened patiently. Yang Lei thought that Ding Wen was a very good listener. Even if he couldnāt accept Ding Wenās feelings, he really thought of him as his friend.
Yang Lei asked Ding Wen how he was recently. Ding Wen smiled bitterly.
āIn my heart, I still canāt let you go,ā Ding Wen said quietly.
āDonāt be dumb.ā
āReally.ā
Yang Lei was silent for a moment, staring at him.
āI shouldnāt have called you!ā Yang Lei saidā¦
The manager of Turbulent Times came to call Yang Lei. Fang Yu made a phone call looking for him. Fang Yu knew that Yang Lei went to Turbulent Times. Fang Yu was in a bad mood and ignored him. As the night went on, he didnāt see Yang Lei come back, so he called to look for him.
āYou come over!ā
Yang Lei, who had drunk too much wine, shouted into the phone.
āIāll wait here!ā
Without waiting for Fang Yu to reply, Yang Lei hung up the phone.
Yang Lei told Ding Wen that he didnāt need to accompany him. He told Ding Wen to go back earlier. Ding Wen wasnāt willing to go. He was afraid that if Yang Lei stayed alone, no one would take care of him after he was drunk.
āItās fine! Iām waiting for Fang Yu!ā
Yang Lei was still pouring alcohol into his cup. He didnāt bother drinking those foreign wines and directly took a bottle of Erguotou.
Ding Wen just didnāt want him to drink that much. He wanted to snatch his wine bottle.
āLei Ge, donāt drink anymore!ā
āGive it to me!ā
The two of them pulled back and forth. Ding Wen reluctantly let go, looking at Yang Leiās profile as he threw his head back and drank wine. Ding Wen was infatuated again by Yang Leiās handsome and slightly hazy face. He couldnāt control himself. He went over and hugged Yang Leiās shoulder, hugging him tightly.
āā¦ā
Yang Lei felt that something was wrong and was about to push him away. Ding Wenās back tightened, and he was pulled backwards by someone. He suddenly fell to the ground.