I Favor the Villainess Chapter 73
Oohashi Rei’s first love (1)
ā€œAnd then, that obviously otaku guy said. Go out with me… It’s not funny, or rather, I want to laughā€
ā€œJeez… You can’t, Misaki-chan. After all, that person must’ve tried his bestā€
ā€œAh, Kosaki is a good girl. Showing compassion to such an otaku guyā€
ā€œTha, that’s not the… case. Rei-chan too thinks so, right?ā€
I came to my senses at hearing my name called out.
A girl with short-cut hair dyed light brown and a girl with black hair cut in a shoulder-length bob were looking at me.
We’re in a classroom of Yurigaoka Academy Middle School.
As for me – Oohashi Rei, I was enjoying the usual trifling chat with the two girls I’m close with.
ā€œRei-chan?ā€
ā€œUm, it’s nothing. Yeah. Well, Misaki is popular so you rate guys harshlyā€
ā€œI know, rightā€
Saying so, Kosaki nodded many times.
Misaki is a child who plays the central role in the class, Kosaki and I are her followers… It might be too abject, but well, it’s such a position.
Misaki, who’s athletic and reasonably good at studying, is an expressive and unyielding child.
If I had to say, Kosaki is shy, she’s the type likely to be bullied, but because her name happened to resemble Misaki’s, they became close, since then they continued being friendly earning them a name of ā€œSakiSaki Duoā€.
If Misaki were a large-flowered rose, Kosaki would be a lone dandelion blooming on the side of a road.
Speaking of myself, I’m just an ordinary person whose only good point is being tall, I’m just a background character without particular traits.
I feel embarrassed to compare myself to a flower, but I think I’d be a Canadian goldenrod at best.
I don’t like feeling out of place in class, so I somehow belong to Misaki’s group.
However, recently that hasn’t been the only reason.
ā€œI wonder. I mean, don’t those otaku fantasize about 2D women?ā€
ā€œIt, it’s just prejudice, Misaki-chanā€
ā€œNo, it’s absolutely like this. I have an older brother who also owns manga. So, I’ve read some of them, and it’s really that awfulā€
Starting with that, Misaki talked about how manga read by otaku idolize and fetishize women.
I’m not into manga or anime much, but I thought what Misaki’s saying is quite prejudiced.
Of course, I didn’t say that.
I don’t know how exactly it’s in men’s world, but in women’s world, there’s a very innocent ā€œairā€.
Usually, a tragic end awaits those whose actions deviate from that ā€œairā€.
Specifically, bullying and ostracizing.
I’m a person who can’t read the air much, even so I’m not a slow person who can’t understand the danger of stating my opinion to Misaki.
Kosaki’s words from earlier were only met with light rebuttal because she’s Misaki’s favorite.
ā€œSpeaking of otaku, there are also women. What was it? Bee el? They are stimulated by relationship between men. Grossā€
What I heard startled me.
I’m not really a fujoshi.
Rather, it’s the opposite.
I forcibly stopped myself from stealing glances at Kosaki like I’ve been doing since a while ago.
Recently, I can’t help but have Kosaki on my mind.
Her small animal-like sweetness is completely on my mind.
Even if I’m such a big woman, I’m still a woman, so I like cute things.
That’s why at first I thought it was an emotion like that, but it doesn’t seem like it.
The gesture of brushing up her hair, her juicy lips painted with lipstick, her bashful smile – every single Kosaki’s casual part makes my heart throb.
Because I’m old enough, I do have some knowledge.
There are things like lezzes and yuri.
I felt terrified of those distorted – at that time I still thought that – romantic feelings.
This heresy would be a simple way to become ostracized at school.
The first and foremost aim of abiding by the air I mentioned earlier is because people are like this.
While concealing the turmoil inside, I replied to Misaki with a yeah .
It would be awful if it somehow got exposed to her.
ā€œFor example, isn’t she that?ā€
Saying so, Misaki pointed at another girl.
She was a bespectacled girl with naturally curly hair.
ā€œSpeaking of Katano, isn’t she always drawing something? It looks like some gross mangaā€
ā€œThat’s not the case. She’s skilled?ā€
ā€œKosaki, don’t defend that girlā€
Contrary to Kosaki’s quiet rebuke, Misaki’s voice is relatively loud.
Katano-san who certainly should’ve heard it, kept silently drawing without showing she minds it.
ā€œRei, what do you think? Isn’t that sort of thing gross?ā€
Misaki inquired.
While subtly implying I should agree.
ā€œUmm… Well, I don’t understand itā€
ā€œI know, right. It’s impossible to understand. It’s truly grossā€
I intended to give a neutral opinion, but Misaki took it as an affirmation.
While I was thinking that Katano-san isn’t really in the wrong, I couldn’t help but think of the person herself.
When I glanced at her, our eyes met.
I looked away in panic.
ā€œWhat, Katano? Do you have a problem?ā€
ā€œā€¦ Not reallyā€
Noticing Katano-san looking here, Misaki threatened her.
Katano-san replied in a weak voice, and immediately returned to drawing.
ā€œWhat’s with her. Feels grossā€
ā€œMisaki-chan! Jeez… Sorry, Katano-sanā€
Misaki spat out and Kosaki said to smooth it over.
I feel terribly uncomfortable, I can’t even explain what I meant by the words I said to Misaki at this point.
As a result, I’m complicit in shunning Katano-san.
Feelings of guilt made my chest heavy.
ā€œThat’s why otaku are hated. They can’t read the air at allā€
ā€œNow now… Katano-san is a type to do things her own way, surelyā€
Afterwards, Misaki kept talking how otaku, including Katano-san, are generally unpleasant.
I thought she didn’t have to go that far, but after all I couldn’t object.
Being excluded from the girl’s world at school was that terrifying.
Even if you don’t do anything, you might get ostracized.
To live in this world where relationship can easily be broken off, there’s no choice but to read the ā€œairā€.
But, on the other hand, I yearned for Katano-san’s situation.
The situation of being able to do what she likes in defiance of the ā€œairā€.
Katano-san clearly has a strength that I don’t.
I strongly envied that appearance of not fearing loneliness.
(If I became like her, Kosaki would also――)
I shook my head to drive out the dangerous thought that suddenly appeared.
ā€œWhat’s wrong, Rei-chan?ā€
ā€œUm, it’s nothingā€
To Kosaki who slightly tilted her head, I responded with a smile meant to deceive her.
This feeling is not that.
I’m just slightly misunderstanding friendship.
Isn’t it often said.
That us girls tend to have feelings similar to romantic feelings for the same sex.
Surely when I grow up, I should also normally fall in love with a man.
That’s why, I’m not abnormal.
Back then, I was still a young girl afraid of various things.
But, a person cannot stay a child forever.
Soon after, I came to realize that.