Ch104 - Rebirth talisman




In Infinite Hell, Chongjue had once hunted vicious beasts to make Su Hansheng a set of white chess pieces.
But what he didn’t know was that Su Hansheng had never understood chess from beginning to end.
No one taught him. He could only fumble alone, studying chess manuals by himself.
But the youth lacked patience and had no energy to study seriously. He could only play randomly—to others it looked legitimate enough, but anyone with even slight knowledge of chess could tell with a glance that his moves made no sense whatsoever.
Su Hansheng didn’t know how to play chess. When cornered to a dead end by Qi Jianyi, he simply stopped playing.
When he couldn’t win, he’d flip the board. He’d always been this way.
Su Hansheng had already lingered at the back mountain of Yingxu Sect for quite a while. As night fell and birds called, he carried a lamp, pacing back and forth on the steps, candlelight illuminating the youth’s beautiful profile like warm jade.
The companion tree that always stayed by his side was rarely absent.
Su Hansheng looked up at the full moon overhead, tilting his head slightly.
In his past life, it was also on the night of his coming-of-age ceremony that Qi Jianyi schemed to have him fall into Infinite Hell.
Perhaps in this life he couldn’t escape that fate either.
Su Hansheng calculated the time and slowly ascended the stairs carrying his lamp.
Hanmang Garden sat at the back mountain. Because of the Cold Pool there, at night a faint chill slowly poured down the stone steps, like mist-wreathed fairyland.
Nothing to fear.
Su Hansheng thought: “That was my own body. Returning my soul to it—can that be called possession?”
These past years he’d used this sophistry to continuously convince himself, vainly seeking a moment’s peace from his conscience.
Now that truth would be revealed, Su Hansheng still used that twisted logic to persuade himself, yet the hand carrying the lamp gripped tightly, his knuckles faintly white.
He was still afraid.
Su Hansheng climbed the eighty stone steps one by one toward the front. The chill of Hanmang Garden grew stronger and stronger. Through the tree shadows, he could vaguely see the garden courtyard brightly lit.
Chongjue was still in the courtyard, having waited a long time.
Su Hansheng walked to Hanmang Garden’s frost-covered gate. He raised his hand to push open the door, but the instant his fingertips touched the ice, he instinctively flinched back.
The youth’s tall figure stood before the gate for a long time. His hand finally applied slight force, pushing forward.
—Just like three years ago when he pushed his younger self underwater.
“Creak.”
Hanmang Garden’s gate slowly opened.
The companion tree wasn’t in the courtyard. Without the sky-obscuring canopy, Hanmang Garden appeared even more spacious and cold.
Su Hansheng walked in slowly, raising his eyes slightly to look.
Candles burned in the courtyard. By the unobstructed Cold Pool stood a sturdy plum tree, its blossoms blooming year-round.
Chongjue sat beneath the cold plum tree, white kasaya hem and shoulders already covered with fallen plum petals.
Frost lingered all around.
From the moment Su Hansheng pushed open Hanmang Garden’s gate, he knew there was no retreat—just like when he personally drowned his younger self years ago, even if he regretted it or suffered, it was useless.
He could only keep walking forward.
Walk to his death.
Su Hansheng walked forward without a moment’s hesitation.
Chongjue sat with his back to him, seemingly watching the Cold Pool. Hearing footsteps, he didn’t turn around.
In just a few short steps, Su Hansheng quickly reached the Cold Pool. He swept his robes aside and knelt beside Chongjue, casually removing the pouch from his waist as if nothing were wrong.
“I’ve kept Uncle waiting.”
Chongjue finally turned his head to look at him, his slender ten fingers slightly cupped, as if cradling something.
Su Hansheng glanced over, seeming to realize something. Like nothing was amiss, he curved his eyes in a smile.
“Uncle discovered it?”
Chongjue’s expression was unreadable. He moved one hand away, revealing the final broken soul remnant inside.
—Su Xiaoxiao’s soul remnant.
Su Hansheng glanced at it then expressionlessly withdrew his gaze, as if the remnant soul in Chongjue’s palm wasn’t his own. He casually removed items from his pouch one by one.
Three exquisite strings of Buddhist beads, Su Xuanlin’s mustard seed space…
And the pile of plain white robes Chongjue had stuffed into Su Hansheng’s hands when drunk.
Su Hansheng had already removed his magnificent coming-of-age robes, changing into entirely white plain robes, his waist sash tied tightly, making his figure appear even thinner.
As he removed items, he spoke flatly: “These are things Uncle gave me. Now I return them to their rightful owner. There’s also this mustard seed space—I’ve stopped at Golden Core stage and cannot fully control the bone chain magical artifact. Uncle, see if there’s a way to erase the restriction and remove the bone chains yourself.”
Chongjue watched him for a long time before suddenly saying: “…Was it you who did this?”
He referred to the soul remnant in his hand.
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Even if he only caused minor trouble, when reprimanded by elders, he would immediately swear to heaven that he’d never do it again.
So obedient.
Chongjue had sat by the Cold Pool for a full hour, forming countless soul-questioning seals. The answer he received was always the same.
—Su Xiaoxiao.
After three years of seclusion, the now partially-merged evil one struggled for the first time to seize control of this body, disregarding suppression, as if fearing he would harm Su Hansheng.
Chongjue cradled the soul remnant for a long time, his heart in complete chaos.
He wanted to interrogate Su Hansheng about the whole story, but clever as he was, he’d already obtained from Qi Jianyi and Su Hansheng’s brief exchange that answer he didn’t want to believe yet could only acknowledge.
Chongjue turned his head, looking impassively at Su Hansheng still wearing a flippant smile, not knowing where to begin asking.
Should he ask what exactly this rebirth business with Qi Jianyi was about? Or should he ask why this soul remnant lay at the Cold Pool’s bottom, calling itself Su Xiaoxiao?
Or perhaps… the past life they spoke of.
Su Hansheng knelt there, tilting his head slightly upward to look at Chongjue, waiting for his interrogation.
Finally, Chongjue parted his lips, speaking quietly: “…In the past life, where was I?”
Su Hansheng’s face maintained forced composure, but his hands hidden in his sleeves had nearly drawn blood from his palms. He’d already imagined countless questions Chongjue might ask and prepared a heap of answers.
He could describe with a flippant smile every detail of how he drowned himself in this Cold Pool. He could mention matter-of-factly how he spent ten full years mingling with the evil one Chongjue in his past life. He could even describe vividly falling into the cycle after self-destruction.
As long as Chongjue asked, he always had answers to satisfy the World-Honored One.
But Su Hansheng had never imagined Chongjue’s first question would be this.
The smile vanished from Su Hansheng’s face as he looked at him blankly.
“Wh-what?”
“Not the evil one.” Chongjue watched his eyes, repeating once more: “Where was I?”
Just eight words. Su Hansheng could hear them, yet was too bewildered to understand their meaning. After a long while he finally reacted: “You… you’re asking this first?”
Chongjue said: “This is what I most want to know.”
In that instant, Su Hansheng was utterly at a loss. His chaotic mind had never contemplated this question’s answer. He could only struggle to process it, straining to think for a long while before answering.
“You… in my past life during my seventeenth birthday ceremony, you didn’t come to Yingxu Sect.”
In his past life, Su Hansheng didn’t even remember he had a World-Honored One uncle.
Only in this life, after Su Hansheng possessed Su Xiaoxiao’s body, did the Fuli clan’s possession talisman emit an aura that attracted Chongjue, who came specifically to investigate whether evil spirits had truly infiltrated Yingxu Sect.
…That was when he encountered the reborn Su Hansheng face-to-face.
Chongjue lowered his eyes slightly.
Su Hansheng absolutely couldn’t bear Chongjue’s indifferent attitude. Like being killed with a dull knife, each breath made his organs ache faintly.
He abandoned his plan to let Chongjue question him proactively. Kneeling on both knees, he grabbed Chongjue’s sleeve and urged:
“Ask me. Ask me why I killed myself. Hurry, ask me.”
Chongjue paused. Seeing Su Hansheng’s pale face and swaying body, his instinct was to raise his hand to steady him.
But Su Hansheng gripped Chongjue’s wrist—the one cradling the soul remnant—tightly, murmuring as if possessed: “He… he was good. He was the most obedient, just like you most hoped for…”
Chongjue’s brow furrowed slightly: “Xiaoxiao…”
“Shut up! I’m not Xiaoxiao!” Su Hansheng suddenly flew into an inexplicable rage, his eyes reddening. “Don’t call me that name again! I’m not him!”
The virtuous one dominated Chongjue’s heart. The well-behaved, clever “Xiaoxiao” he wanted from beginning to end had long been personally drowned by Su Hansheng.
No matter how obedient he pretended to be, he would never be the Su Xiaoxiao who only lived to seventeen, never experiencing any tragic suffering.
What Chongjue wanted could never be this madman.
Su Hansheng hadn’t shed tears, yet his emotions were extremely unstable.
He only appeared bright and beautiful on the surface. Anyone could see his insides had been hollowed out by decay, fragile beyond measure. A single breeze could snap this towering tree in half.
“Look at him.”
After shouting that sentence, Su Hansheng immediately regretted it. Gripping Chongjue’s wrist, he stammered: “He wasn’t a little madman… he wouldn’t cause great disasters. He was very good—what Uncle wanted most.”
Watching the crazed Su Hansheng, Chongjue felt his organs ache faintly. His heart contracted bit by bit, both sour and painful.
He held his breath, attempting to reach out and touch Su Hansheng’s hand gripping him.
But the moment he moved, Su Hansheng seemed afraid, his whole body falling backward, stumbling back to his original kneeling position.
For some reason, he suddenly laughed dully.
He’d already confessed his crimes. Was Chongjue about to strike him down—this deranged person—into Infinite Hell?
He was going to…
Su Hansheng’s mind had been churned into muddy water by unbearable pain and collapse. Yet even in his daze, he remembered one final piece of business.
Even if he fell into Infinite Hell, he’d take Qi Jianyi with him to death.
Chongjue’s voice vaguely reached his ears. Su Hansheng tried hard to listen, but his eyes were unfocused. In his confusion, he could only see the person before him seemed to be speaking.
He couldn’t understand those words at all. Only one thought occupied his mind:
He’d killed Chongjue’s beloved, obedient Xiaoxiao.
Chongjue would use the Heavenly Way to summon the array and drag him into Infinite Hell, just like he’d dealt with the Gong family’s collateral branch back then.
Chongjue was still saying something, his voice rarely somewhat urgent.
Su Hansheng looked at him in a daze. His mind either lacked oxygen from the overwhelmed of being killed by Chongjue, or felt joy at his imminent liberation. He actually clapped his hands and laughed aloud.
The nine talismans in his hands suddenly flashed a scarlet light, ready to strike at any moment.
Through blurred vision, Chongjue truly did as Su Hansheng imagined in his heart—lowering his eyes, fingers forming a seal, gazing downward as he used spiritual energy to draw a talisman on the ground.
Su Hansheng’s pupils contracted, yet his heart felt not fear but indescribable joy.
Because he’d already anticipated Chongjue would summon the array to cast him into Infinite Hell, he felt smug. An inappropriate elation surfaced in his mind.
Like a gambler who’d lost everything, finally placing his last bet with his final coins and miraculously turning the tables—that euphoric feeling surged straight to his brain, transforming into bone-searing pleasure spreading throughout his body.
Su Hansheng treated his successful prediction of Chongjue’s behavior as a form of “control.” That feeling excited him until his cheeks flushed. He parted his lips, breathing shallowly, his unfocused, absent eyes staring at Chongjue.
The World-Honored One of Mount Sumeru embodied compassion for all living beings. He would sacrifice himself for the Heavenly Way without a single complaint.
How could such a saint have true selfish desires?
The special treatment from three years ago was only for the obedient Su Xiaoxiao.
Not for this madman who’d lived through three lifetimes spanning eighty years.
Suddenly.
A warm hand gently grasped Su Hansheng’s ice-cold wrist, pulling him slightly forward. That warmth startled Su Hansheng, who could barely breathe, making him shudder violently.
Su Hansheng looked up at him, pupils unfocused, unable to focus for a long time.
The array Chongjue had drawn had silently settled on the empty ground before them. He gripped Su Hansheng’s hand, placing something like cloud mist into his palm.
Su Hansheng’s mind was blank and chaotic. He tilted his head to look.
A mass of cyan mist nestled in his palm.
It was Su Xiaoxiao’s final soul remnant.
Only after a long while did Su Hansheng recognize what it was. His scattered pupils contracted with difficulty for a moment as he immediately tried to withdraw his hand.
But Chongjue forcibly held his wrist, speaking softly: “Don’t run.”
This time Su Hansheng heard Chongjue’s words clearly. His whole body stiffened, yet he obediently stopped trying to escape.
He hadn’t descended to Infinite Hell yet. No matter where he fled, the all-seeing World-Honored One would catch him and drag him back.
Why add unnecessary trouble?
Su Hansheng patiently waited to descend to Infinite Hell, but felt Chongjue guide his hand to slowly rest on the array drawn on the ground.
The cyan soul remnant was too light and soft. Su Hansheng vaguely felt as if he held a handful of snow. When his hand fell onto what he thought was the array for casting into Infinite Hell, the “snow” in his palm seemed to melt inch by inch.
The sensation was too wondrous. Su Hansheng looked in confusion.
The cyan soul grew smaller and smaller in his palm, like snow falling into clear water.
Su Hansheng froze.
Chongjue raised one hand in a hand seal, gently parting his lips to recite something.
Su Hansheng remained bewildered for a long time before belatedly realizing…
Chongjue was reciting the Rebirth Sutra.
The array between them wasn’t one to forcibly drag someone into Infinite Hell.
—It was just a small rebirth spirit array.
Su Hansheng was completely stunned.
Chongjue’s entire being was cold and pure as snow, yet the gesture holding his wrist was extremely gentle. After finishing the Rebirth Sutra, the icy deity opened his eyes and raised his gaze. His dark blue eyes sparkled brilliantly in the surrounding candlelight.
Like a Buddha statue untouched by worldly concerns finally gaining a soul.
Su Hansheng gazed at him in a daze for a long while, his quivering lips barely parting..
“You… what are you doing?”
Chongjue watched him quietly in the candlelight.
In that instant, Su Hansheng almost thought he was the evil one from Infinite Hell.
Yet Chongjue remained in that meditative state. He reached out to gently wipe away tears Su Hansheng hadn’t realized were falling, saying without preamble:
“…I didn’t emerge from seclusion because of changes in the three realms.”
Su Hansheng was confused, only belatedly understanding after a long moment.
This sentence answered what he’d asked last night: “Then why did you emerge from seclusion early?”
Chongjue’s abrupt statement not only answered yesterday’s question but also explained today’s actions.
Su Hansheng couldn’t understand the deeper meaning. Unable to process his emotions, he only wondered why Chongjue’s answer didn’t match the question.
After saying that, Chongjue seemed to have exhausted all his emotional expression quota as World-Honored One. He shifted his gaze downward, looking at the rebirth spirit array on the ground.
“…Two souls sharing this realm—most likely the Phoenix Bone’s ability.” Chongjue spoke softly. “You could borrow the body to return your soul. Perhaps it was fate predetermined by the sacred object. He… is also you yourself.”
Su Hansheng’s mind was in complete chaos. He couldn’t make sense of what Chongjue was saying at all.
Too strange.
Chongjue saw that Su Hansheng’s consciousness was confused and he couldn’t understand the meaning at all. He spoke gently: “Can you recite the Rebirth Sutra?”
Su Hansheng’s brain had stopped thinking. He shook his head blankly: “No.”
“Mm.” Chongjue nodded. “Then I’ll say a line, and you repeat after me.”
“Oh.”
Su Hansheng couldn’t understand what they were doing, but his trust in Chongjue made him nod without thinking, doing whatever he was told.
Chongjue patiently led Su Hansheng through reciting the Rebirth Sutra.
As the array on the ground rotated, the cyan ball of soul that felt like a handful of snow finally emitted golden light, transforming into scattered specks of firefly light that disappeared.
The array vanished. Chongjue withdrew his hand and looked up.
Su Hansheng knelt in place. At some point his soul had returned. He stared lost at where the cyan soul had dissipated, his face pale as paper already covered in tear tracks, crying silently.
Chongjue gently wiped away his tears.
Su Hansheng felt those warm fingers brushing against his ice-cold cheeks. His whole body trembled finely and densely. Tears he could no longer hold back fell in large drops.
Countless emotions piled up in his heart. Not knowing how to release them, they churned Su Hansheng into painful sorrow.
He didn’t know what to say. His lips opened and closed, yet he only whimpered out two words.
“Chongjue…”
Once again directly calling an elder by name, but this time Su Hansheng didn’t receive that familiar… “Insolent!”
Chongjue answered him warmly.
“Mm, I’m here.”
Su Hansheng’s whole body trembled. He could no longer control himself, pressing his forehead against Chongjue’s palm, sobbing aloud.
Fireflies filled the sky.
That trace of soul remnant remaining in the mortal world was silently sent by the rebirth spirit array to where it should go. Yet just as it left Hanmang Garden, that cluster of firefly light seemed to sense something, suddenly changing direction and drifting with the wind.
The mountains were silent. Footsteps faintly echoed from below the stone steps.
Xu Nanxian came hurrying without even carrying a lamp, using only spiritual energy to condense a sphere of light to illuminate his path. Taking three steps as two, he rushed up from the mountain base, heading straight for Hanmang Garden.
Midsummer mountains teemed with birds and insects.
As Xu Nanxian walked quickly, he suddenly felt a strange breeze brush past his ear, as if something had floated by.
A faint, childish voice sounded.
“…Senior Brother.”
The voice was too weak—if one didn’t listen carefully, it could be mistaken for insect chirping. But by some strange impulse, Xu Nanxian stopped his anxious steps, standing on the pitch-black stone steps and turning slightly to look.
Darkness surrounded him. Only a few fireflies fluttered gracefully.
Nothing strange at all.
Perhaps he’d heard wrong.
Xu Nanxian didn’t think much of it, continuing quickly forward.
The firefly light drifted quietly, instinctively wanting to follow that figure.
In the next instant, the cyan glow was like extinguished starfire.
…Finally fading inch by inch.
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