Perhaps the enemy forces will come again and Iāll be able to see a battle this time so I decided not to return to the city, but instead stayed in a tent overnight here.
The aristocrats looked at the Emperor with a disappointed smile when they heard his selfish request. Of course they would ā there arenāt any enemy forces in the first place.
The Emperor was too stupid to understand that⦠I ended up spending the night here. I think Iām going to get what I came here for.
After dinner, I went into the tent that was prepared for the Emperor. It was treated as the Emperorās private room even though it was only temporary. The aristocrats couldnāt enter and Timona was the only person who was allowed to follow me into the room. For some reason, Rosalia was in the room as well⦠but I donāt have time to pay attention to her.
I squatted down in the corner of the tent and vomited in the hole that Timona had secretly dug out for me. I had really reached my limit.
The stench of blood and smoke that had stained the area reminded me of that scene.
āYour Majesty!ā
Rosalia screamed.
ā⦠Your voice is loud. I donāt want them to know.ā
ā⦠Yes.ā
I felt really bad. I guess the aristocrats hadnāt considered that the villagers who were killed were also human like that since they were eating normally after seeing that massacre.
I believe itās something I have to get used to, but every time it happensā¦
āItās really draining.ā
āYour Majesty. I will go out for a while. I donāt think you should be seen like this.ā
ā⦠Thanks.ā
Timona went outside, leaving Rosalia and I in the tent.
āYour Majestyā¦ā
She rubbed my back. Iām grateful for your concern butā¦
āWhy did you come?ā
Rosalia was supposed to be waiting nearby with the carriage. It wasnāt my intention to bring her to a place that smelled thick of blood.
ā⦠Your Majesty. I am the woman who will eventually become the empress.ā
She sounded as if she was about to cry.
āI will never⦠ask to share the burden that you shoulder. The weight of oneās fate is not something that someone else could lightly ask to carry. I am well aware of that. I am sure todayās events would have been hindered by my presence since I am a woman.ā
⦠That wasnāt my intention. I probably didnāt want her to experience something painful. I didnāt want to show her the evils of this world.
But sheās right, she is going to be the empress⦠and I donāt want her to become another āMarie Antoinetteā either. I have to alter my plans.
Then Rosalia gently wrapped her hands around mine. My nausea subsided.
āBut even so, that does not mean I should not know the burdens you shoulder. So please forgive my selfishness just this once.ā
⦠Iām surprised. You said something that I would say.
āAlright, I wonāt tell you off for this.ā
I couldnāt help but smile. Are we similar?
ā⦠Iām tired.ā
āYour Majesty. Please just rest for today.ā
Iām so exhausted that I can even tell Iām tired. Itās something I have to get used to⦠but it would be a problem if this happens every time. Iāll try developing magic to suppress my nausea when I have time⦠or even magic to suppress my emotions.
āAlright.ā
I put my hand over the hole and filled it back up with earth magic. Timona dug a pretty deep hole even though he probably didnāt have that much time. I couldnāt smell the vomit once it was covered.
The smell of blood and smoke that had stuck to my body was still there though.
I laid down in the smaller than usual bed in the tent, then the nausea, which had gone down, came rushing back.
āYour Majesty.ā
āIām sorry. Iām just feeling a bit sick now that Iāve laid down.ā
Hearing this, Rosalia got up onto the bed and laid next to me.
The bed was smaller than the ones in the capital or in an aristocratās mansion, but it was large enough for two children.
Then she suddenly held me.
She buried my face in her chest. I would normally be excited if a girl did this to me, but I felt strangely at ease now.
āYouāll get dirty.ā
Iām sure Iām covered in soot since I was in the smoke all day, and I was puking earlier. I donāt think I have any vomit on me, but Iām not clean.
āI do not mind.ā
ā⦠The smell will transfer onto you.ā
āI do not mind. Now please go to sleep.ā
She smells good. The smell of blood and the presence of death that had stuck to my body seemed to be fading away, and then I felt drowsy all of a sudden.
āThanks.ā
I let go of my consciousness while surrounded by kindness and warmth.
ā ⦠ā ⦠ā ⦠ā
I woke up early the next day. I looked next to me and saw that Rosalia was still sleeping.
She supported me in many ways yesterday, and itās just a hunch⦠but I have a feeling that sheāll support me many more times in the future.
āThanks for keeping guard all night without sleeping, Timona. Are you feeling alright?ā
āNot sleeping for a night is not a problem.ā
We both spoke in low voices so that we wouldnāt wake up Rosalia.
āWill you be washing up?ā
Baths and showers arenāt brought to the battlefield. In places like this, you only need to wet a cloth with hot water and wipe down your body.
āYes, thanks⦠No, it wouldnāt be right for me to ask you to do this kind of work. Can you call Rosaliaās maid? Sheās waiting outside.ā
I know that there are two maids waiting outside from my heat detection which I now use habitually.
Though honestly speaking, I could wash myself⦠but itās relaxing to leave it to others, so I let others wash me.
āNo, I am not sure if we can trust the maids, so I will do it myself. Please do not mind this.ā
āI see. Then Iāll leave it to you.ā
I was lost in thought while he was wiping me down.
I will go up the hill again after this and then back to the city, then Iāll make my rounds to the different fiefs and make them speak their mind⦠My tour will continue until autumn if Iām not careful, but well Iāll just think of it as work⦠Having to listen to a principalās speech or a drunken bossās ramble is much better than this though. Especially since the feudal lord here was the first of them.
Oh yeah.
ā⦠I believe Count Bailer Noveās name is Timona le Chauvire?ā
āYes, he has the same name as me. Is it confusing?ā
āItās fine since Iāve never called him by his name before⦠I was just suddenly thinking about your last name. Is your last name perhaps not Renan, but Nan?ā
Timona looked blank, which was rare.
āYeah⦠is āRenanā your last name?ā
His hands stopped. It seemed like this was devastating news to him.
I was now sweating profusely. I hated it when my bosses remembered my name incorrectly⦠Our master/servant relationship wonāt crack right?
āFufu. You certainly started calling me by my name when you started to trust me.ā
Timona laughed?! What does his laugh mean? Is it a bad laugh? A good laugh?
āCome to think of it, on Baron Renanās⦠I mean Baron Nanās grave there is a little gap between āReā and ānanāā¦āĀ [1]
It isnāt good to assume.
ā⦠Iām sorry.ā
āIt is alright. I was going to sever all ties with the Nan House⦠So why donāt I just call myself āRenanā? There is no greater honour than to be given a family name from my master.ā
ā⦠Donāt tease me.ā
āI am not jokingā¦ā
He dressed me. Anyway, it doesnāt seem like heās angry.
⦠That honestly gave me a fright.
āI see, I have to achieve something in order to say that I am from the Renan House.ā
ā⦠I canāt tell if youāre joking or not so can you stop?ā
āYou two seem to be having fun.ā
I looked towards the bed and saw that Rosalia was looking this way sullenly.
Itās because you were pretending to be asleep even though you woke up half-way through our conversationā¦!
ā ⦠ā ⦠ā ⦠ā
This was extremely obvious, but the enemy army didnāt show up today.
āWhat? Theyāre not coming?ā
āYes. They cannot put up much of a fight against the Empireās powerful soldiers.ā
Count Bailer Nove said as he laughed loudly.
⦠The army thatās here isnāt the Empireās army but Lord Raulās though⦠Theyāre the Chancellorās private army.
āHmmm. Then it seems that the Theanabe Union will soon be destroyed.ā
My words stiffened the aura around me in an easy-to-understand manner.
Count Bailer Nove realised that he had said something unnecessary, immediately fell silent and glanced at the Chancellor, Lord Raul. Thatās what happens when you get carried away.
But well, itās dangerous for me to meddle anymore.
āBut I do not know much about this, so I will leave it to the Chancellor.ā
āHah, certainly.ā
Iām sure he doesnāt want to. He looks like heās ready to get out of here.
I wonāt let him.
āBut then again, this is the hill where I am seeing a war for the first time. I like it! This hill shall henceforth be known as āCarmine Hillā!!ā
āHahā¦? You are going to add your name to this⦠hill?ā
The aristocrats were stunned.
As they should be. The emperorās name should only be added to special places, like the capital āCardinalā, since their ādignityā was at stake. Having it taken away by another nation was like crushing the emperorās face.
It would be a mistake to attach it to such a tiny hill, and the hill is near the border as well.
āHmm. Itās a symbol of my victory. Spread it around.ā
Feeling good and attaching your name to something⦠is normal, and the Emperor is a child. He doesnāt understand what dignity is all about, so this declaration wasnāt strange.
And the Chancellor⦠can no longer abandon this hill. His dignity would drop if the land with the Emperorās name on it were to be handed to the enemy without any resistance. The Regent faction would use this to condemn him.
Of course, my dignity would drop as well if that were to happen. There was nothing more embarrassing than having an enemy steal the land that bears my nameā¦
Well, thatās only if a puppet emperor has dignity though.
āHow about building a castle here at some point? A villa is fine as well.ā
Now I have a reason to regularly inquire about āthis placeā, and the Chancellor canāt pull out his army because of such a huge risk.
As long as the Chancellorās army is in place, the āGolden Fleece Associationā, which is under pressure, wonāt be able to send troops to the Central Continent. I can achieve my goal to ābuy time against the Golden Fleece Associationā.
Besides⦠This will probably aggravate the relationship between the feudal lords at the Theanabe Union and the āGolden Fleece Associationā. The feudal lords cannot get their land back as long as Lord Raulās army is here. The Golden Fleece Association will be questioned about why the feudal lords had to surrender their lands unconditionally.
Of course, this was all under the assumption that the Chancellor wonāt withdraw his troops. Itās also possible that he will abandon this hill⦠but the Chancellor couldnāt show any weaknesses since the Chief of the Ministry of Ceremonies was consolidating his power by sorting out his faction.
And⦠I personally have no intention of forgetting this hill.