Tenseishitarashii Nodesuga, Zensei no Kioku ga Mattaku Arimasen Chapter 4

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I promise to have them teach me how to cook in the meantime then I go home. Although the meal outside is convenient, it's true that it isn't good for the body. The taste is strong and, it’s more like, it’s great help that they’d teach me how to cook since I want to eat a variety of meals.

But before that, let’s take a bath. In the end, I was only able to wipe myself with wet cloth yesterday.

The climate here is neither damp nor dry. Although it’s just the right level of humidity, but still, it’s dusty in some respects.

The house is made of clay, the wall is also made of clay, and the road is soil. Basically, they’re all dirt. There are no houses made of wood, nor bricks. If they’re rich then there might be such things but in my surroundings, I couldn’t find any. That might be why it’s dusty.

Also, it’s quite cold when it’s night time. It might not be very hot during day time, but the temperature drops at night.

I lit a fire just like how granny taught me. I found a flint when I searched the house. No, I’ve always known it’s there but, I had no idea what it was used for.

I lit a fire with the object that was placed by the kitchen and heat the bath. While the bath was heating up, I draw water from the well. I fill the bathtub until the water went past a little more than half of it.

It’s my first bath after a long time. It’s only the fourth day since I came to this world but, I feel like it’s been a long a time. Taking off my clothes, I cheerfully soak into the hot bath.

[Oh, Oh, OHHHhhhh~]

A strange voice came out from the hot water. But it feels so good.

I rub my body using the cloth I use to wipe my body with soap and washed it afterwards. *Gashigashi* I wash, and then I once again submerge in the hot water. Although I regret using the bath water before washing myself, I’m the only one entering it so I guess it’s alright. Starting tomorrow, let’s wash our body before entering the water.

A minute of regret, another for reflection. I can’t be stressed in a different world.

I get out of the bath and eat the food I bought from the market. It’s a stir-fried meat with vegetables. This meat is beef. I eat while telling myself. It’s beef, probably.

I wash down the dry bread with wine. Even though I selfishly called it wine due to it’s red color, its official name is apparently Sakkok(サッコク). The ingredient is probably grapes, grapes. Because it doesn’t seem to contain any alcohol, it’s more like grape juice instead of wine.

Don’t face the truth. Live with deceit. In order for me to live in another world, I must first fool myself or I won’t be able to take it.

It’s been four days since I arrived here. I’m a reincarnator who has absolutely no memory of his past life. Reincarnators’ Association and Men’s Club. I have learned from the two groups, I’d call it a lesson about self preparedness.

Today’s weather is also good. I wonder if it even rains in this place? The sky is a cloudless blue, and I noticed that I’ve never seen any clouds since I came here.

I was lost as to where I should go today, but I decided to go to the Men’s club.

The option to stay at home does not exist. Such a gloomy house, I feel like I’ll go crazy if I stay in it for the whole day. It’s dark and quiet. I will end up thinking about things I don’t have to think about.

The Reincarnators’ Association and Men’s Club have the same distance from the house.

The Reincarnations’ Association is Granny Haru’s* house. Granny’s husband is a hard worker and is away from home from morning to night. And that’s why it’s being used as the meeting place for the reincarnators. (TN: He calls her granny because she acts like an old woman (even though she was indeed old when she died.))

Her husband is apparently also relieved about it instead of leave her alone by herself. The kids granny gave birth to were all boys, wait, I guess that’s obvious. Anyway her 5 sons are there, and they’re all working like their father. The youngest is 5 years old, but he goes together with them to work. Granny’s family are farmers.

[Here? Here is Allec’s house.]

It seems the Men’s Club’s meeting place is the alluring brother, Allec’s house. I’ve never seen his husband before but, I wonder if it’s the same situation here? Just when I thought about asking him, I was right.

[He’s a lumberjack. He leaves the house early in the morning and comes home late at night.]

[By lumberjack… it means he cuts trees as his job, right? Is it something you do until late at night?]

When I tilted my head, Allec laughed and answered me. This person, even the way he laughs is sexy.

[Apparently it takes 1 hour to arrive from the house to the mountain where he works. But since he needs to bring the woods with him, he will be pulling the wagon. That wagon will be parked in the lumber mill, so he will have to go to the lumber mill first after leaving the house, then go to the mountain while pulling the wagon. Upon returning, he must first carry down the woods he cut from the mountain to the lumber mill, that’s why he gets home late at night.]

[Ohh~]

There are no cars, after all.

[Allec’s husband probably doesn’t want to leave him alone. That’s why he’s tolerating us gathering in here.]

I can somehow understand why he does not want to leave this person here alone. Even if the person himself doesn’t feel anything, it feels like someone who will be done in by his sexiness will pop out. 

But if that’s the case, will the reincarnator be alright with that?

[Us? We’re alright. We’re reincarnators after all.]

[Does it mean anything?]

[A big one. As a reincarnator, our role is to give birth to the children of the men here. That means a male reincarnator is being deprived of his important function.]

[…… Eh? Doesn’t that mean…..!?]

Unconsciously standing up, I stared at my own crotch. It’s been 5 days since I came here. It’s certain that I’ve never gotten an erection.

[Don’t misunderstand, I tell you. It’s not about the erection. You will get hard if you get penetrated and your g-spot gets hit and you will also ejaculate, but that’s just it.]

[…What do you mean?]

Even though Duke’s explanation is quite direct, but since we’re all men here  I guess it’s fine.

Topics like this can be talked comfortably between men. Even though the aunties at the Reincarnators’ Association are beautiful and cute, I was more comfortable here.

I even got used to Haruka after a day even though he shocked me. Rather, It was Haruka who looks the same as me who became easy for me to talk to.

[In other words, the reincarnator’s partner is a man from this world. Fellow reincarnators can’t have sex. Unless our partner is a man from this world, we won’t get hard.]

[I made a pass to a female reincarnator before and the other party also got  interested and when we were about to get things going, I couldn’t get it up… that sure got me depressed.]

Kent hangs his head down.

Ah, yeah. I understand that. Like not getting hard because you’re nervous or cumming during foreplay, it’s a man’s shame, after all.

[I also encountered the same situation. And so, I understood after trying it countless times. That my body has been constructed exclusively for the people of this world.]

[Then, you can’t masturbate either?]

[I can’t, nor does the will to do it arise. Nonetheless, once my husband is in the mood for that and touches me… I will also get excited.]

I was probably making a face as if I was about to cry. Kent patted my shoulder to console me.

[Don’t make that face. I understand how you feel so much to the point it hurts. But you know…. just give it up.]

I limply walk on the road half-crying.

I wonder how it feels like to be plowed into by a man, and how does it feel to give birth? I know that I have to ask that part to the Men’s Club but, I’m so scared I couldn’t. Haruka and Allec seem to have experience in their previous life, the rest are… There must have been an intense conflict. (TN: Looks like Haruka and Allec were both gays.)

I want to cry for real, and for some reason buried my face on the back of the sheep walking next to me. The sheep’s fur was dusty and hard, it stinks and my face hurts. But I cling to that warmth. The sheep was a nice guy and stayed still until I stopped crying.

It’s been five days since I reincarnated. At this time, my only companion as I cry was a sheep.