The madam made a gentle but serious expression as she asked.
āIf you have any concerns or if thereās anything you want, just feel free to mention it.ā [Elize]
āFirst of all, I have zero complaints whatsoever about how you treat me. Iām the problem. Iām sure youāve already heard, but Iām actually a really selfish person. Probably, much more than you think. If I were to be known as the ādukeās specialistā and cause a problem, itāll become a scandal for you, and Iām scared of that.ā [Ryouma]
Now that I think about it, the reason I isolated myself in the forest and now live in an abandoned mine might be because of my unconscious worries toward the city and my relationship with people.
Even back in Japan, where I was born and raised, Iāve always felt that I was different. Yet now Iām in a foreign country with different culture and customs that resides in a completely different world. Can I really blend in here perfectly?
Moreover, common sense, rules, perspectives, and values all change with the changing of times. Though this world doesnāt have an information network as developed as my previous world, there should still be changes across generations. Will I be able to keep up with that?
If I were still young⦠No, even when I was young, I was already out of sync with my surroundings. I hope never to say something as old-sounding as ākids these daysā, but who can say for sure as I gradually grow older?
In the past, I would have just think optimistic stuff like āIāll do my bestā. I would fail a lot, but even then, I would just say I would do better next time and keep pushing myself. But despite my optimistic words, I never actually trusted myself.
I realize that now and can say with conviction that itās impossible for me. Iām carefree even when pessimistic. So Iām sure my actions would invite disapproval from others. Itās my fault, so I only have myself to blame, but if the dukeās family were to suffer because of that, if I were to cause problem to those around me⦠Well, Iād hate that.
But in society, itās not uncommon for an individualās scandal to hurt his affiliation.
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A representative example would be those malicious pranks made by part time workers that regularly became talk of the internet in my past life.
I donāt want to repay the Jamil familyās gratitude with evil.
Thatās how I felt, so I chose my words carefully to tell them that. That was putting to waste their good will, but for some reason, the duke and the madam smiled.
āI canāt believe Iām still saying this, but you really can stand on your own now even without us, canāt you? So you were more adult than we ever thought.ā [Elize]
As the madam said that, her attitude changed.
āBut this time, we wonāt give in. I told you that word of your deeds has already spread, right?ćIf we canāt even reward you properly for that, no one will ever want to become our retainer. The other nobles will speak ill of us as well, and our reputation will take a hit. So we have no choice but to get you to accept our offer even if you donāt like it. You understand, right? After all, you know that your conduct affects the people around you.ā [Elize]
āTo add to that, you might have forgotten, but there is a requirement to maintain the position of a specialist. You need to report a certain amount of contributions or research progress every year. And while we do intend to look at the matter from a long-term perspective, your position will be revoked if you produce too little results. Of course, you can be stripped of your rank and expelled if you cause a scandal as well, though that will be up to my discretion. If there are more downsides than benefits, then as a noble, I will have no choice but to quickly cut our ties.ā [Reinhart]
Unrelenting and despotic, that was how one-sided Reinhart-sanās words were, but while Iām sure not everything they said was a lie, I know that theyāre saying all of that for my sake.
Theyāre doing this purely for their own benefits, so theyāll cut me down if I cause a problem⦠Thatās why, I donāt need to worry about hurting them and should just accept their offer.
They must hate having to be so forceful, and yet theyāre going so far just for me⦠At this rate, Iāll only be making things difficult. Itās a favorable proposition for me anyway, so I might as well fold.
āAlright. I accept your offer to be the Jamil familyās specialist.ā [Ryouma]
When I said that, a soft expression appeared on the duke and the madam once again.
āThank goodness. Now, weāll need you to sign a few documents. And what should we do about the field you specialize in?ćYou seem to be doing a lot of things, soā¦ā [Elize]
āIn that case, please make āslime researchā my specialty.ā [Ryouma]
As the madam says, Iāve dabbled in all sort of fields , but my focus is really in slime research. If Iām to be named an expert in something, then it could only be in slimes.
āI figured youād say that.ā [Elize]
āIs it a bad idea?ā [Ryouma]
āThereās never been a precedent, but it should be fine. Next is⦠Oh, right, there was that topic regarding Baron Verdureās son too.ā [Elize]
Who? But then a certain face suddenly came to mind.
āIs this about Yurdum-san?ā [Ryouma]
āThatās right. You didnāt know his family name?ā [Reinhart]
āIād heard he was a noble and that he came from a baronās house, but he said he wasnāt qualified to name his house, so I intentionally avoided asking about it. Sorry to interrupt.ā [Ryouma]
āItās fine, just ask whenever thereās something bothering you. Going back to the topic, I mentioned that a Rank 2 Specialist would be given status, financial support, and, if necessary, place and manpower to conduct experiments, right?ćWhat do you think about hiring Yurdum Verdure?ā [Elize]
āWell, if youāre going to hire someone, then someone I know like Yurdum-san would be best indeed, but doesnāt he have another employer?ā [Ryouma]
āAbout that⦠Actually, weāll be taking care of him for awhile. His Majesty might trust him, but he was basically working as a spy, so as an apology for snooping around and keeping secrets, heās being lent to us. But of course, thatās not the only reason.ā [Reinhart]
Reinhardt-san gently brought his cup of tea to his lips with a slightly tired expression. Apparently, thereās been an exchange of some sort, but if they say itās fine, then it must be fine, and the king himself approved, so there shouldnāt be any problems.
In the first place, I was the one who chose to put Yurdum-san beside me despite knowing he was a spy.
āAnyway, heāll be working at our place for a while, but we canāt just have someone we donāt know besides us. Now, if weāre going to just push him off to some place, I figured we might as well just have him work for you.ā [Elize]
āBesides, it seems like he really wants to work with you. You treated him well, and he really did leave to train his martial arts, so if he could stay at your laundromat, then heāll be able to further hone his skills as well. Or so he says, anyway.ā [Reinhart]
āI see, that makes sense. In that case, Iāll be glad to take him in. He has a good reputation at the store, and itāll be busy from here on, so heāll be a huge help.ā [Ryouma]
āLetās do that then. By the way, since heās being entrusted to us, heās not allowed to leak any information even if itās the king himself, so you donāt have to worry in that regard.ā [Elize]
āOnce you become a specialist, your store will be treated like a āworkshopā or a ālaboratoryā, so be sure to use that to your advantage.ā [Reinhart]
Oh, thatās something to be really grateful for. Iāve always been under the protection of the dukeās family, but by formally being employed as their specialist, my backing is now stronger than ever, and my trustworthiness is also much higher.
āThank you very much.ā [Ryouma]
āLikewise, after all, weāll be getting your knowledge in exchange. In fact, you should be demanding more from us.ā [Reinhart]
So they say, but I really canāt think of anything.
āWell⦠Thereās currently a shortage of lumber, especially firewoodā¦ā [Ryouma]
āWeāve already requested for as much help as possible from the neighboring cities. Our familiesā dimension mages are also helping with the communication and transport, so supplies should arrive soon. But thatās not for yourself, is it? Thatās for the city.ā [Reinhart]
āBut I canāt think of anything other than that right now.ā [Ryouma]
āIt doesnāt have to be now. Just say it when you need something. You said so much about being selfish, but youāre always thinking about others.ā [Elize]
This time it was their turn to look at me with astonishment, but really, there wasnāt any contradiction between my actions and my selfishness.
āItās precisely because Iām selfish that Iām like this. In the same way that a real bad person wonāt look like a bad person from a glance, a selfish person wonāt appear selfish right away. After all, people would distance themselves from someone selfish, and that wonāt lead to any benefits in the long term. Itās more efficient to act altruistic on the surface to get the most benefits.ā [Ryouma]
āI get what youāre trying to say, and youāre not wrong, butā¦ā [Reinhart]
āIn the end, youāre just working for otherās sake.ā [Elize]
The duke and the madam looked at me like two people watching over a child, then a few seconds later, we burst out laughing.
That continued for awhile before we started ironing out more of the details, and before long, the night peacefully passedā¦
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