I opened my eyes and got tickled. The reason is simple. It is because my long black hair hangs on my nose.
â⊠Ryuko-chan?â (Arge/Ginji) âYes, good morning. Kuon Ginji-sanâ
When I call the name of a girl in front of me, she reply with the smile that I can see and the voice that I can heard.
⊠Is it a dream again?
It is not Argento Vanpear but a memory as Kuon Ginji. I am experiencing it again as a dream. The girl wear maid outfit that take care of me in my past life, Mizushiro Ryuko-chan. The time is a few days after Kuon family decided Iâm donât have the talent âto be humanâ or âto liveâ and I was imprison here as âdeadâ. Kuon family donât need such people and they will be keep in here for the rest of their life. She has a straight long black haired. Real age is 20 years old but she look more like a young child than a teens girl. (Legal Loli) I should call her as Ryuko-san, but the person herself look even younger than a child like me. Looking at me who just wake up, Ryuko-san smiled.
âI always think, you are sleep a lot, arenât you, Ginji-san?â âThereâs nothing to do since I entered here, so I keep sleeping almost all the time.â  (Arge/Ginji) â⊠Certainly, there are few entertainment here, do you want me to bring the board game next time.â âNo, until thenâ  (Arge/Ginji) âFu fu, is that so? I will get it for you âŠ, since itâs time for meal, please get up.â âThank youâ  (Arge/Ginji)
Right now Iâm watching the conversation which has become past. I already knew what she will say and my reply.
⊠Why do I keep dreaming of the old times?
Since I reincarnation in the different world, I have seen past as dreams many times. As if to say that thereâs a meaning to trace memory, again and again, many times. I get off the bed automatically just like I remember in my memory and advance to the table. I only can only watch.
âThe meal today, I handmade it by myselfâ âAs a matter of fact, I will not be able to do this so I really apprecia itâ Â (Arge/Ginji) âHa~, is that so?â
Tanako is smiling and urges me with âHere you go!â Today is japanese dishes such as grilled salmon, rice balls and miso soup were lined up on the table. To be honest, Iâm really appreciated that meals will come out even if I stay silent, so I decided to obediently receive it.
Iâm taking a seat on the other side and starting to eat, Ryuko-chan is also sat down face to face with me. She often sit down and have meal together, for some reason.
âIs it tasty?â Â âYes, veryâ Â (Arge/Ginji) âFu fu, your girlly face doesnât change, so I donât know until you said it.â âWa, this is really deliciousâ Â (Arge/Ginji) âYou donât change your facial expressions at all, I only hear your pleased voice! I will not be able to judge whether it is true!â Â âI see. Understoodâ Â (Arge/Ginji) âIf you want to express your happiness, please make sure your face smiled properlyâ
While complaining about it, she seemed to be enjoying somewhat, and she begin to move her chopsticks. I can make meal myself, but it is true that I really appreciate someone made meal for me. If meal is delicious, I will love that even more.
âLife with a three meal and nap whenever I want ⊠this life is so comfortably, isnât it?â  (Arge/Ginji) âPerhaps, I think thatâs only you say thing like that.â âIs that so?â  (Arge/Ginji) â⊠There are several other rooms besides here, but only you can remain alive and sane.â
Oh, look like thereâre other people beside me.
The Kuon family that I was born is a greatest family, you can say that all of the world is in their hands. That is why the family is always asked for perfection, and who arenât perfect will be imprisoned with failure branded. I am one of them. People who brought to this kind of room before me probably couldnât bear. They couldnât bear the treatment and either become insane or chose death.
I do not understand that feeling. It is because it seems natural for things to be thrown away. Throw away what you no longer need. That is what anyone is doing. So why do not you think about the possibility of yourself being âsoâ?
Iâm watching it in my dream of that time, even now, after reincarnated as Argento Vampear, I still donât understand that.
âThe family didnât need it and we were thrown away ⊠is it so difficult just to accept it?â  (Arge/Ginji) âI think that it is impossible because it is difficult ⊠Thatâs why there is this room.â âThis room âŠ?â  (Arge/Ginji) â⊠It is supposed to be isolated from the outside world and not to need it ⊠No matter how good this place is, It is a place to destroy the human heart of unnecessary Kuonâs memberâ
I can understand the meaning of the word she said. Because this room is too beautiful. When I came here, not only furnishings, but also walls, ceilings, and corners of the floor were like new items. Yet the walls and stairs beyond iron grid are old, only the room is the new. It gets useless every time it is used, it seems to be rebuild as new everytime, a strange atmosphere. And Ryuko-chan keeps on speaking.
âWe have order to take care of anyone come here with best treatment, even so people still canât accept it, it wonât take long before theyâre broken ⊠until you appear.â â⊠Had Ryuko-chan seen it several times?â  (Arge/Ginji) â⊠Yeahâ
Her expression is fluctuating, Ryuko-chan put off the chopsticks. It was as if she lost the feeling of eating, the dream me is still moved the chopsticks. I seemed to remember the taste neatly and unexpectedly, to the extent that I thought as ânostalgicâ, I also felt the taste of meal.
â⊠There are lots of servants who are afraid of you, so thatâs why they are used to people like meâ â⊠that, did you mind talking to me?â (or Am I bother when talking to you => should I stop talking to you) (Arge/Ginji) âIt will be no good, but Ginji-san donât have to do anything and they arenât monitored here either.â
Ryuko-chan smiles with a relieved smile like she gave up. I didnât know how to laugh at that time. Even now, I am not sure what I should do in that situation, to be honest. Still, the dream is smiling, it seemed force, I wonder if iâm doing bad.
âThe Ginji-san is a strange personâ  âIs that so?â  (Arge/Ginji) âYes, very ⊠So ⊠I donât want you try to get out of here, I want you to be alive. To keep seeing someone het broken ⊠I got tired.â
Wishing words like praying. What did I answer? I know that. I still remember. However, before I speak that word in my dreams, my consciousness came.
⊠âI am okayâ, I said so.
Although It was  inevitable while I was asleep, I could not keep the words I said. I had not lived long enough, and died. I will awake from my dream, even as a small needle sticks in my heart. Someone is calling out to me with a name. Which name is called, which one? (Arge still half-sleep)\n<figure class="wp-caption alignnone" data-shortcode="caption" id="attachment_19896" style="width: 800px"><figcaption class="wp-caption-text"> [Next]</figcaption></figure>