Konata smiles at my plate of finished food and leaves the room.
āAh, what should I do? Iām full and Iām getting sleepy. Iāll take a light nap and then start back.ā
I lie down on the futon.
I close my eyes.
I am thinking vaguely about the name and slowly drifting off to sleep.
Mozozozozozo
āUooo!!ā
I feel a tickling sensation on my arm and I get up.
I open my eyes and there is a small brown spider.
I shake it off.
The spider has fallen to the floor and is wandering around aimlessly.
āLetās get rid of itā
I reach out my hand to the spider, take one look at the window and then I realise.
āI canāt do that. Iām locked up.ā
I naturally forgot about it.
āAree? Isnāt it bad that Iām getting too used to this abnormal environment?ā
Bloodlust.
Thinking about it calmly, Iām in a pretty bad mental state right now, arenāt I?
It is true that my relationship of trust with Konata is deepening day by day, my living environment is improving and I donāt feel the urgent need to escape right now.
But after exploring the possibility of escape on about the second day of my confinement, I havenāt made a single effort to escape until now. This is indeed not good enough.
āAlright. Letās get serious about planning an escape plan for a bit today.ā
I think to myself.
āAh, I knew desk work would stiffen my shoulders.ā
First, I decide to test the limits of my chain length by pretending to do exercises.
Iām going for the window, under the guise of training for thigh raises.
āI still canāt do it.ā
I still canāt reach the window.
Although the chains are longer than they were when I was first locked up, they need to be twice as long as they are now for me to reach the window.
āThe front doorā¦needless to say.ā
In the direction of the front door, I am currently unable to even try to escape, as she is near the kitchen.
But to begin with, the chain is only just long enough to reach the toilet and the bathroom next to it, so there is no need to try.
āIf so, breaking the chains ā is indeed impossible.ā
There are no tools in this room that can break a strong chain.
Even if I smash it on the floor or wall, or somehow get a spoon or a fork and crunch it, the sound would alert her to my activity.
āIf so, should I shout?ā
This is a move Iāve considered before, but itās still no good to do it here either.
Suppose my voice reaches my neighbour and he is lucky enough to call the police. If a policeman came to my room, she would probably take out a kitchen knife, which she hasnāt been using for a while, and threaten me. If she gets impatient with her clumsy fingers, she may chop me up like a clumsy zombie rabbit apple one day.
āIf the police raid the room after she stabs me, theyāll make her a criminal.ā
Thatās the first and foremost reason for rejecting the loud proposal.
Come to think of it, the timing when Konata went shopping for clothes was the biggest chance.
I let out a sigh.
Of course, Konata must have seen that I was sleeping very soundly and went out shopping, so I guess I had no chance after all.
āThatās all I have right?ā¦..If Konata goes out again at some point, Iāll try a few things then..ā
Having her around makes it impossible to escape on my own at this time and I choose to patiently wait.
āIn the end, I have to wait for Konata to change her mind and stop locking me up.ā
I harbour such vague hopes.
āIf so, is it still wise to turn her attention outwards? She seems to be having school-related problems, and it would be good if I could make it easier for herā¦ā¦.to that end, what I should be concentrating on right now isā¦manga.ā
My thinking leads to the same conclusion as ten days ago, with no progress.
But there are some differences from before.
The storyboard is steadily approaching completion.
I have a feeling that 80% of it is done.
But there is a bottleneck in the development of the climax and I just canāt get to the end.
Itās frustrating.
āWhen this name is finished, Iāll be brave enough to get out of here. Iām so close, so close to getting it done. ā¦.ā
My consciousness is drifting away from the escape plan and I am once again paddling out into the vast ocean of creativity.
āāć
āāć
āāć
This is the outline of my realistic escape plan on the 23rd day of my confinement.
Thinking back, I had already lost my mind since then.
Because itās impossible, isnāt it?
How could I be more reluctant to turn her into a criminal than to hurt myself?
But at that time, I didnāt have any particular discomfort with that thought.
Of course, in hindsight, there were plenty of ways to do more.
I had already recovered enough strength, so I could have just held her down by force and run away.
For example, if I had told her that I wanted to do a drawing of her backside, created an opening and bound her hands and feet with chains, it would have been easy to launch a counter-offensive.
If not, I could have taken a full nap during the day and waited for her to fall asleep before attacking her.
With the length of the chains on the 23rd day of confinement, even such a manoeuvre should have been possible.
But such violent measures never even cross my mind.
That, more than anything else, is proof that, unconsciously, even my mind is controlled by her.
At that time, I must have literally become her ćcaptiveć.